V...

hrm V... Vanity we all have a little even if we think we dont.  It can manifest in the time spent on yourself in rl, to look good, cosmectics, clothes, hell even plastic surgery.  In SL it isnt much different  though  perfection is possibly more attainable, well visably any way.  Music.. Van Halen well Van Hagar lol probably one of my fav songs of that era of the band.

Oh my

Had to put this here...

Ok had to digress

this is hillarious damn you Dilly

U...

U ugg what a letter... Uber Unknown, under, hrm I'm lost on this one lol lemme think here.. ok people do things, often for reasons unknown to yourself. yes I'm stretching it here.

music lol yeah dun die

T

Ok I am still plugging away on this challenge even if Locke gave up the ghost :(
T.. tarnish, jewelry, silverware,dreams,friendships all can become tarnished. The become dull, and damaged on some level if you will. Music.. Tantric

S..

Shit....what to use for S.. Stress? It's a common complaint this time of year, deffinately have my share like everyone else.  Kids... Holidays you name it blah.  so yeah Stress will be the word of the day...and the song? Under Pressure of course :)

R..

Man I am RUNNING Behind lol note how I worked that one in.  Holidays are here so that means  there will be RUSHING, and RINGING Bells and RANDOM posts like this  one :P
Seriously I wasn't expecting  life to get quite so hectic yet but it is what it is I suppose. Music wise .. hmm just recently finished Keith Richard's book, it was a good book indeed so for R lets go with Rolling Stones, song? man so many good ones  to choose from but I am picking this one...

oh and since we are on  the subject  Richards, Keith   man I do love this song

Q

hmm everyone else has used Queen and yeah I do love me some Queen let me try and not use them lol.  Quiet.. there's a word I like a lot... Quiet...  in a house that is often loud and rowdy quiet is awesome, in a SL that used to be filled with much noise... quiet is amazing.  yep I think I am liking this thing called quiet!

Music lets try Quiet Riot Cum On Feel The Noise :P

P

I figure if I get a couple in tonight and a couple in tomorrow I might get caught up!
P... procrastinate..purple..Prince...popular...polite...music wise his purpleness himself.. Prince, we wont even go into  how long I have admired this man.

Gotta add this one rawr

O

Oh boy am I behind! lol well in my defense I was out of town Weds afternoon through Sat afternoon,  hey its a airtight alabi!  hrm O... Octopus? Oragatang, outside, over,old,
For music yeah I have to go with Otis Redding cuz he  is classic and obviously amazing

N.

N... nothing...never,new,now,not,nnnnun ya business? Yeah I got nothing for N I guess, sorry kinda going along with my mood I suppose.

M

M would be Music for me.  Music is a muse to many, the beat many live by.  Music adds to so many memories, a song often brings to mind a person place or thing.  So there you have it my M word .. music :)

Music wise.. Mars, Bruno

L...

L.. I'm gonna go with "Letting Go" perhaps I am playing devils advocate a little, perhaps not, I see people hurting, and unhappy and mhm it's all easier to say than do but here goes.
1. Let Go Of :: To let go of something to stop holding on.

*Letting go doesn't mean giving up,but rather accepting that there are things that cannot be.~ Anonymous

*Letting go has never been easy,but holding on can be as difficult.Yet strength is measured not by holding on but by letting go.~Len Santos

*Breathe.Let go.And remind yourself that this very moment is the only one you know for sure you have.~ Oprah Winfrey

Anyway, not judging at all, just thoughts that popped in my head from reading other blogs.  To know someone is hurting, even if your past with them is  sketchy, still makes me sad.  Then again I have always been a mothering sort, and  wish I could fix all the hurts I encounter.
And to go totally in a different direction for music?  Lordi of course!

K...

Kindness.. many things come to mind, kindness can  take many forms from a word, a touch ,doing small things for others.  But notably I think of the old movie...A Street Car Named Desire.. and the words of Blanche,
"Whoever you are, I have always depended on the Kindness of strangers."  Great old movie :)

J....

Joe Cocker lol gotta be done

I...

I'm a day late and a linden short as per usual, yesterday was a incredibly busy rl day, so I'm rushing this one beside I is  a difficult letter lol  so let's go with a group called In This Moment and a song I love, I will let Locke have INXS lol :P

And this cover by them as well woot it is awesome

H.

Well here I am at H, hmm how do I decide on a good H word, Help? Happy?Let's go with Help. it's 11/11/11 after all and yep those men and women who serve whether in active duty or in the guards... they help, they risk their lives so we can live as we do.. I've not a lot to say today, been a busy day hunting season, lots of extra peeps around the house, kids had eye doctors appointments HELP!!! lol sorry had to toss that in.  Any way thank you to all of you who selflessly serve our country.

G

G.. Grief perhaps is where I am going to go, I know I blogged not long ago it was a post for a friend mostly, but here we go again.  Grief is really rather daunting when you think about it, it can consume us, it can over whelm us, dealing with it in "healthy" ways can be good for us.  Everyone at some point in their lives  most likely will or has already experienced it.  There are many reasons  for grief, and it is as individual as  people are.  I think back to last year, one of my twins lost a class mate, he was 9 years old, lost too soon in a farming accident.  This time I could help my son express his feelings better I believe than I could when he was 4 and his father passed away.
He still even a year later will suddenly say something about his lost  friend, just every now and then a memory will pop in his head and he  tells me... it makes me smile a lil knowing he seems able to express  his thoughts rather than bury them.  When I was a much younger person , and I woke one morning to find my 2nd child dead in her crib, nothing could have ever prepared me for that grief, however as time went on I became a parent to parent contact and helped other parents  get through the tidal waves of emotions that crash into you, I even went on to do public speaking on the subject of dealing with parents after the loss of a child.  At the time these outlets helped me heal as much as it helped others I believe.  Years passed, and then you begin to lose others... father in law, mother in law, husband, father.  Grief I believe is what you make of it, my own father said to me  when i called him  to break the news  of my daughters passing.. he said "Do not sit down and let others do for you, get up , get moving, if you crawl into that hole you wont ever come out!"  It may sound harsh to some, but he knew what I needed to hear and I still remember and thank my lucky stars he was intuitive enough to say it.  I have dealt with grief while working as a volunteer on our community ambulance, families  sometimes throw misplaced grief in the form of anger at you, it happens.  As a nurse working with the elderly again  grief was all around either the resident themselves or the family .  So.. now that I have babbled on and on and on...I'm gonna stop and close this rather lengthy and  probably depressing post thank goodness tomorrow is the letter H!? And leave you with a song for my Dad.

F...

F is not gonna be my fav letter, hmm Fabulous Thunderbirds,Faderhead,Five Finger Death Punch,Filter, and on the groups go.  Or words like Fun,fast,far freaking out,and so on so instead I'm gonna be lazy and go with a band and a video :P so I leave you with Fivefinger Death Punch and one of my all time favorite cover songs

Oh and this awesome dress from -tb- C88 so Fifties! woot another F word!

E....

E.. education comes to mind foremost.
Education starts at home they say and I firmly believe that.  Parents, grandparents and others teach a child early on, right from wrong, values, morals, beliefs. Children learn from  everywhere in a sense, summer camp, church if they go, their friends and so on.  Then they go to school, and begin to learn from teachers, those we pay and entrust with teaching  them the things they need to learn.
When I was a volunteer paramedic, people used to tell me that it took a special person to do what I and the other crew members did, and perhaps that is so, but I think it takes a special person to teach and teach well.  The rewards I believe, at least for me, were not monetary[lol we didn't get paid to teach the  1st responders], they were instead the feeling of accomplishment when a student "got" a hands on technique, such as stopping bleeding or applying mast pants. Or the tears of joy of a family member when a patient was saved or transported to the hospital.
There are teachers and then there are TEACHERS.  The skill of teaching from the book is simple enough, but the skill of making a child pay attention, to awaken their minds and senses to something new, to make them understand, that's a TEACHER and a rather amazing thing.  When I sit down with my boys I am often amazed  and humbled by these teachers who take a class of 25 10 year olds and teach them, no easy task.
So now that I have rambled on and on I will leave you with yet another old video :)

D

D brings to mind many things and I was torn between a couple so I'm gonna start with DANCING... something I've done since I can remember.  Dancing is relaxing, energizing,good exercize and  a wonderful form of expression I mean  Dirty Dancing? rawr., so first thought is Billy Idol, also  that sneer mm mmm mm anyway this old song is still a favorite

Def Leopard, amazing band, also waited while their drummer  healed and taught himself to  drum again after a horrific car crash.  Many bands wouldnt have  waited, says a lot about them in my book.

C... Calm

Today's letter is C.  Calm is what I think of first.  The new calm I feel now, SL has become calm and relaxing, and I am lovin every minute of it.  I thank Locke for giving me the little push I needed to let go, I am a happier person, I am actually more me than I have been  in a long time :)

B.. is for...

Hmm B lol I can think of a lot of  things to use, I'm torn on which.  B is for Broken Spoke... where I dJ'd today, nerves? you bet, tons of them I could have shared with several people. Locke..  thank you for talking me down and also Brian, Ras, and Drion who all listened to me  moan and groan and  basiclly have fits lol
Went well, had lots of fun, yay!  No picture for it so Ill  add one of my boys.... also a B yes? lol my sons Arlen, left, William Right and the grandbaby Lucian in the middle yay for my boys!

A is for.....

hmm A is for many things..... but I think I'll go out on a limb here  and say Abs! rawr plenty of them in this video yummy.. oh and if ya need Locke's  blog link here it is lol  http://abjectvoid.blogspot.com/

Challenge

I have challenged Locke.. Mr. Procrastinator to a blog challenge... lol easy one this round the alphabet, of course he said yes, then said ... in true Lockness " Start Tomorrow?" lol I do adores him.. anyway  so yes it should be fun to see what he comes up with, maybe others wish to join? Lemme know

*Yi*

Yi.. means Gift... mhm  every day is a gift...every breath one takes....just everything. Sometimes it doesn't seem like it, but it is. any way that's enough of me getting all  silly I wanted to show off Yi.. my Kabuki 'roo.. a gift from Locke :)  She is purdy! she is the white one the lower one well that's my Emporer.. Elvis.. - grin- mhm Elvis is alive and well and living as a Meeroo on mah sim!

I Wish

So I was reading a friends blog .. she recently lost her father and  the pain for her is still raw , like a wound, fresh, trying to scab over and heal but you move and  there it goes again.  I wish I had the magic words for her, fact is I don't, no one does, sure I could say look Momma, I'm a old pro at this.. lost my 2nd born daughter, lost my Mother, my father, my husband, his parents, my grandparents, but fact is, everyone has to go through it themselves, everyone has to deal, to experience the pain, the emotions all of it.  I can offer my hand, my shoulder, my ear to be there when she needs to share, yes that I can do.  But those steps, much like the first steps a child takes are ones she must take in her own way, her own time.  It's a helpless feeling sometimes, wishing you could make things better when you cant, knowing you have to let them go through this and just be there.  I can say .. yes, though you may not believe it at this moment, there is a light at the end of this tunnel, one that will shine again, when your ready.  There will come a day, slowly when you smile more than cry.  When the memories hurt less.  Be patient with yourself, don't be  too hard on yourself.  Allow yourself to remember, to work through those memories.  And remember I am always here, and always willing to listen.

Onward and up.. er somewhere

So I have decided no more angry posts I'm so over it all... on to happy things fun things..  Roos? yup we haz them and we enjoy them.  I noted in Guen's blog she has been involved in some new and exciting things and I am happy for her, always good to see people further their SL work :) Way to go Guen! Kudos are usually in short supply so well done and congratz. I have not posted here much been  posting in the other  one I made which is simply clothes ... yes me and clothing in sl a long term love affair.  I hope to get out and explore a bit more now that things are settling down into a nice quiet place.  That is if I can drag Mr. Procrastination away from the roos and off the sim lol.

I don't Care

I know negative sounding title , but in truth it is more me saying, hey people, I don't give a  damn any more about who djs where who's doing what with whom or where.. seriously live and let live, I spent so much time giving multitudes of  chances to people who did nothing but treat me like shit behind my back, and now... I'd just appreciate being left alone.  I am content, happy, and  seriously that's what every one's SL should be.. happy and fun yes?  Friends? well if you really are one then by all means  holler, drop an im ... you might be surprised how much  people can change when not faced with the endless bs they were before. :)  On ward and upward yes?

And So

Someone said i should do a fashion blog.. ok well that's a great idea except everyone and their brother does one, and although I tend to go buy the latest items offered from my favorite designers, I usually don't wear them immediately, yep I am slow. But I started one anyway so.. all daily outfits will be there from now on be prepared for older stuff lol. Link is in my list to the side :P

Part 2

Today is about the dress.... The dress took me a long time to find one I like and even at the end I was torn between 2 styles from the same designer, but given the setting of the wedding I chose the one that best fit. .I enlisted the help of Guenevere DeCuir to make a tatt that fit the feel of the dress, given the the feel of India to it she suggested a Henna wedding tatt, and that is what she made including a bindi, it is an amazing tatt, very delicate, it fit the dress perfectly. The rest were bits and oieces picked up here and there to go with the over all outdoors feel. A huge thanks to Guen for completing the dress :)






Hair - Truth- Nicola
Skin- ~Mynerva-Kia,Apricot
Flower hair wreath - +FS+ Flower Vine Set
Ears - .:DD:. - Elf Ears-Roses-White tipped
Dress - MiaMai Wedding Collection - Arcadia
Tatt - .:Coll:. - specially made for me by Guen :)
Bare Feet - Similar
Bouquest - {not shown -sorry} - ::Phenix:: Lily and Roses Lg - Off white
Nails - Mandala - Nail Pallette 2 /short

Setting Up

So I did something I swore I would never do, get SL married. Even in SL weddings are work, either you hire someone and pay a ton of lindens or, you do it yourself. Personally doing it ourselves seemed much more personal, and I think made the day a little more special.
So with the help of old friend Casper priestman who provided the land with 6k prims to spare lol I managed to set up and use less than 1k prims. Any way this post IM just gonna include some pics of the set up, why? cuz I want to! In the end it was a fun evening shared by some of our oldest friends in SL, Dont worry I will post more later :P

{What Next} - Chairs and tables,lanterns on the tables,lights along dance floor,"alter" [these are great weathered wood look and copy!]

~*Forest Floor*~ flowers, trees

Meant To Be- Princess wedding cake

Weddings By Nienna - wedding drink table { lol had to have vodka for UC!}

Fairy Tales Wedding Supplies - Gift Table

Hmmm, just hmmm

So standing around with Locke, the roos and a couple alts... lol mhm we are really exciting people, anywho thought i would blog the outfit cuz I can and eh what else do I have to do between petting the roos, playing TE and exploring sl. yes, life is good.

Hair- Lelutka - Brigitte

skin- Mynerva, Kia,sepia

outfit- Razorblade Jacket- I wish on pink stars set leggings with micro skirt and worn tube top 2 [pink rules]

Shoes - Mstyle Rivea Pumps Magenta
Nails-Mandala- kabuki pink of course

Onward

yep moving on :P

Hair - Truth-Miku, Burgundy

Skin - ~Mynerva~ Kia Sepia

Makeup -_Damned_ catseye makeup

Tattoo - {Glue Ink} Pretty Princess, and Glue Ink Bow

Lashes - AMD Ultimate Lashes feathered

Collar - Red Mint 03

Dress- Sn@tch Milla net Shirt Army with panties

Belt - The Abyss FM_NAU Combat belt

Cuffs - Ha! O-Ring Cuffs - black

Nails- Mandala Milky way Rings and nails gaga black

shoes- J's platform pumps , black

Time To Say Goodnight

So, I have passed the proverbial torch... so many reasons, so many years of being bitched at and about, people who have no clue how stressful it can be keeping a place like that going. In the end the choice I made... was partially the right one, partially not, Daisy would be livid, I'm sure, but I guess it cannot be helped, it leaves a bitter taste in my mouth as well, but whats done is done, time to move on. I have learned who my friends who and who they aren't through this, of that I am amazed, people I wouldn't have expected to IM and offer kind words, and offers of this or that, those who I thought were friends who couldn't be bothered to IM because apparently they were too busy tripping over themselves to suck up to the new owner. At any rate at least I know right? I am walking away completely, I cannot bear to even be there, I just cant, my reasons are many and my own. To those of you who helped make SR awesome, thank you, and I hope you continue to visit and make it amazing still. SR is no longer my home, but it still has a place in my heart.

Thoughts

Ok so I've been thinking a lot last couple days and I feel the need to just sit down and type this out, it is about the one thing in SL that just absolutely baffles me... So, a rl married couple, been together a good number of years, are suddenly experiencing some issues. True I dont know all of it, but the things I do know are this, one of them had SL partnerships to others, one has not that I know of. Suddenly that one who hasn't, meets a 23 year old girl yep I call a 23 year old a girl, they aren't that mature yet no matter how you slice it. So, suddenly there is drama going on the partner who met this lil chick is suddenly ending his rl marriage and so on. Now, maybe the other party is jealous, perhaps too jealous, and maybe one could say whats good for one should be good for the other. Here in lies my issue.... is some lil girl who hasn't a clue about how relationships work worth giving up a long standing marriage? Does the one who has had partners in SL have a right to even be upset? I don't know ... I guess this all goes back to what I have said all along.. Married people have no business fooling around in SL... someone always gets hurt. Marriages can be ruined, children upset, you name it, it can happen. This saddens me, and strengthens my beliefs on the married in RL = single in SL.

What The Heck

No complaints.. what? OMG Mir have ya lost yer mind? why no I haven't really just not feeling like saying much of anything really yeah I know utterly shocking isn't it?

Hair - Maitreya Joy III Red

skin - Mynerva Kianna Raven Shade 6

Tattoos - addixion Love Gun

outfit-Caliente Express capris w/ suspender pink

shoes- Sim-I-lar Vicenza, black

FacePalms

Ok so the usual SL crap happens yes? the people that treat ya like dirt cuz they found new toys to stroke their egos , and all that good stuff..... you know .. lol the usual sl drama, anyway now and then the funny stuff happens the facepalm moments and I think this is one... Imdy she did bad things to my Lady gaga bear skin coat! it will never ever be the same! PS the smiley faces are hawt!

The Usual or..Another Day Another Lie

Ok so we all know SL is like a breeding ground for anyone wanting to study Psychology especially abnormal behavior. I mean seriously people come into the game, and suddenly they lose their morals, they become cyber addicts, they lie, cheat and yep some steal. Now to blame it all on sl is wrong. I mean the behaviors have to come from somewhere already right? When in SL it seems because there are no consequences people just suddenly become players, whores and ... eh not so nice people.

example...

here's an amusing example

guy: oh i was such a player before i met you but i want to change that now.

translation: Yeah I wanna shag your avi rotten and I'll say what ever i need to say to get the job done.

Example 2
person- I'm stepping back i didn't listen I've fallen for you and i know ,i know you said not to, so I'm going to step back, and be friends like you said.

translation- you didn't give me what I want fast enough so go away now I need to go get laid, and will have you replaced in a few hours.

wait though it gets better... when confronted they say... but you made me feel like i was good enough to fuck and nothing else you hurt me... lol seriously? after admitting what a man ho you are and your gonna say that shit? not to mention lie when your saying it? lol wise up dude seriously...sooner or later people will realize what a lying whining piece of shit you really are

*takes a deep breath then smiles* ok onward we go


lol anyway I have learned.. people don't really change much no matter what they say, not in sl anyway, once a lying.. cheating man ho always one.. lol leopards dun change their spots ladies, and no matter what you think, your probably not gonna be the one to change him.





Stealing.. well Ive ranted about copy bots and all that so many times but yeah stealing peoples designs ....it sucks and it's wrong. Thee are people in here that earn a living on what they make, it's tough to do when people steal your designs. It sucks.. nuff said.





Belated V Day look..
Hair- Truth
Dress,wings - Sn@tch
skin - AMD
socks- WWI
Boots - Last Edan

Modeling

Ok i have some gripes but lol I'm gonna save them this pic was done by Kehl Razor for his shop Razorblade jacket wow is all I can say he made the avi look good!

1st time I have modeled!