Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Things that make ya go hmm


Walkin' down this rocky road

Wondering where my life is leadin

'Rollin' on, to the bitter end

Finding out along the way

What it takes to keep love living

You should know, how it feels my friend

Ooh, I want you to stay

Ooh, I want you today

I'm ready for love

Oh baby, I'm ready for love

Ready for love

Oh baby, I'm ready for loveYeah

Ohhh, for your love

Now I'm on my feet again

Better things are bound to happen

All my dues, surely must be paid

Many miles and many tears

Times were hard but now they're changing

You should know that I'm not afraid

Ooh, I want you to stay

Ooh, I want you today

I'm ready for love

Oh baby, I'm ready for love

Ready for love

Oh baby, I'm ready for lovemmmmm

Oh I'm ready for love

Ahh, hey ey ey Ready for your love

Ooh, I want you to stay

Ooh, I want you today

I'm ready for love

Oh baby I'm ready for love

Ready for love

Oh baby I'm ready for love

Ready for love

Oh baby I'm ready for love

Ready for love

Oh baby I'm ready for your love

Ahhh ha aahhh ahWooa Oh oh oh Woa

I'm ready for your love

Oh babymmmmm mmmm mmm

Monday, July 13, 2009

People Amaze Me

It never ceases to amaze me... seriously.. that people have nothing better to do than talk about me.. what makes it even funnier is the half truths. It's cool though I am far from a victim, I am human, I have had my less than shining moments in SL, but I also know I'm not half the monster some would portray me to be. However in many ways their bashing and bad mouthing has done me a favor, it keeps many people away from me, thus saving me the time of deciding if they are indeed "real".
I am one person lol no one important, and yet the rumors abound, i am always amazed when i hear some of them. I am blessed with friends who know the truth, who don't bother to listen.
If these people who spread the crap knew me lol they would know i'll be the 1st to admit if it's true, half true or not.
I don't bother lying about shit in sl,or rl cuz it always comes back to kick ya in the ass.
I'm not even going to bother going into the latest ... just know I'm having a good laugh :P

Thursday, July 9, 2009

Wow

ok so i had met someone and we hung out a couple days, he was a nice guy I thought... i liked him, i will admit i suck at sl relationships, im hesitant, and what have you but ok so i then spent a day , i was busy rl and sl, [here's a clue people i am afk a lot because i have kids and a job, i deal with them even if my avi is logged in] so ok i have a quiet day didn't talk to anyone much other than answering ims, and suddenly i'm told i was in a bad mood blah blah.. then the attack continues on to the following,

[2009/07/09 12:02] name removed: Yanno what? Just forget it...Ban me from SR....I shoulda listened to my buddy when I told him you and I started hangin out recently...He said it was a loss cause and that your only here for people to drool over your pixels and you get angry when the attention of guys falls else where...Granted I don't listen to he said, she said stuff, but I guess I shoulda listened to this one...I found out it's a big talk in SR anyway

[2009/07/09 12:03] name removed.. puts you on the wonderful mute list of SL drama and whores.

[12:15] Mirari Cheney: wow i hope i am muted... I have one day im quiet you accuse me of being in a bad mood and then you throw shit at me that some chick said? lol wow you seriously are an asshole ... thanks for giving me the benefit of the doubt and ban you? pffft in your fucking dreams.

[12:18] name removed: You are muted but it comes to my email anyway..Why not ban me? your club is a piece of shit, I never go there and refuse to, and it has nothing to do with your ONE DAY OF QUIETNESS..it has to do with WHO YOU ARE and how YOU ACT..your a grumpy old fuck bag, who thinks she can get away with fuckin with peoples heads in SL...News flash..your a fuckin idiot and no one likes you..Go spend time with your KIDS EMAILING FOR THE GREATER GOOD Join me


ok so.... hmm he heard from a friend I get mad cuz guys don't pay attention to me? wow Theres a a new one on me, I usually keep to myself again i am usually afk like i said. So whats wrong with this picture? I spend a day not talking and hes claiming i get mad cuz i wasn't paid attention to? Sad thing is this person really was someone i thought could be a friend, and i guess his attack, shows me it was obviously a good thing to pull away for a day true colors came through.

We all have reps in SL.... your blind if you think you don't, do i think no body likes me? nah i don't believe that, do i agree some people don't? yep i do, it's just how it is, people don't take the time to get to know you before judgements are made, they decide based on rumors and other crap. To the person who told him that stuff about me... lol yah what ever buddy, you obviously don't know me.

As to SR being shit? well then you just said my entire staff and those that go to SR are shit, SR isn't me, ive said it before... SR is everyone that frequents it and everyone that works there, SR is all it's past owners and staff so um yeah you just insulted a hell of a lot of people. I am but one person there, I make sure the bills get paid, and dj occasionally, that's it, it takes more than me to run the place.

Anyway that's my rant today... am I a bitch? sure aren't we all sometimes? Do i need people to drool over my pixels? lol um nope, Mir as an avi is imperfect, i made her that way, I guess if i needed people to drool over her I'd be there every day with her naked attempting to be the spot light. In truth believe it or not i get uncomfortable when people pay too many compliments on my avi, I actually enjoy conversations instead of the usual " omg your avi is hot" hmm so are 2/3rds of the avis in sl, I don't own the market on it. I actually like "friends" who are not sometime friends, you know the type, they im you now and then when no one else is around to hang with them,or till the next big friend comes along, or when they are djing somewhere. Oh and the fucking with peoples minds.... wow that's a new one, not sure what field that came out of but here's another news flash, no one can fuck with anyone's mind unless they let them, I don't appreciate it done to me, thus I don't make a habit of doing it to others.

In the end I hope that verbal attack made the person doing it feel better, I hope who ever his buddy is who told him that crap feels better about himself too, I myself would rather not bash people, nor carry around anger and grudges, it's so pointless.

So in spite of the insults the attack... i hope he and his buddy have a great day and a happy SL, cuz I've vented, I'm done with it.

Moving on.........

Saturday, June 20, 2009

A response

I wasnt going to bother, but I'm so sick of a certain person always making sure to mention who created SR... and so i put a response in my pics, and the responses to my pic has been .. well it's been amazing. I will start with pasting here my pic rambling...

"Ya know... I do know who started Sanctuary Rock.. yep they keep managing to point it out in profiles and shit... but heres the thing, they sold it, not to me but to Daisy, hmmm SOLD it... yep I'd say that means it's done and it's over. Who cares when the day is done who started it or even who owns it currently...In the end it doesn't matter who's name is on a group as the founder..what matters is that SR is still here, and it took a lot of people past and present to get it here. so as long as it's a kick ass place to go, that to me is more important than anything else. I didnt create SR, nor do i make it great, my staff does,the people that come here do. So to those of you who feel the need to point out the past, geez get over it already."


I never had anything against those 1st people, nothing, dont know them only met one, and i had no issues with him until he attacked me. So, hmm who's really the bad guy here? Me? I dont think so I'm just trying to keep what was started alive so others can come and enjoy it. And to be really honest I pay the bills, the staff keeps it running, they keep the place kicking ass.

So really many people can claim to have "made SR" the people that visit it regularly, the DJs, the Hosts, the Dancers, because in my mind they did, everyone plays a part.

I'm going to end this with a comment from another friend, though im gonna leave his name off the comment, cuz.. well cuz i feel like it.

[16:23] A Friend: those that need to point out that someone else built it and they deserve all the credit are like armchair warriors and assholes....they all have an opinion they think is right. Rock On Sanctuary ...Party On Mirari!

Sunday, June 7, 2009

What ever it takes

It's amazing to me... that if you wish someone well... even if things maybe went badly wrong with them.. they assume you want them... that you want them back... what ever... I guess all I can say is what ever it takes to get you through the day... what ever makes you feel better... what ever you need to justify the end...I gave up trying to make my thoughts heard and understood... i gave up defending myself..seriously it comes to a point when you know your just talking to yourself. If hating me, if bashing me, if sharing logs, if all of that makes you feel better than please do so. However... I will always say hello i will always wish them well. Because no matter what anyone thinks... no matter the bs that gets spread...I do not regret having known you.

Saturday, June 6, 2009

Musical Interlude

Bury all your secrets in my skin
Come away with innocence
and leave me with my sins
The air around me still feels like a cage
And love is just a camouflage for what resembles rage again
So if you love me let me go
And run away before I know
My heart is just too dark to care
I can't destroy what isn't there
Deliver me into my fate
If I'm alone I cannot hate
I don't deserve to have you
Ooh, my smile was taken long ago
If I can change I hope I never know
I still press your letters to my lips
And cherish them in parts of me that savor every kiss
I couldn't face a life without your lights
But all of that was ripped apart when you refused to fight
So save your breath, I will not care
I think I made it very clear
You couldn't hate enough to love
Is that supposed to be enough?
I only wish you weren't my friend
Then I could hurt you in the end
I never claimed to be a saint
Ooh, my own was banished long ago
It took the death of hope to let you go
So break yourself against my stones
And spit your pity in my soul
You never needed any help
You sold me out to save yourself
And I won't listen to your shame
You ran away, you're all the same
Angels lie to keep control
Ooh, my love was punished long ago
If you still care don't ever let me know
If you still care don't ever let me know

Slipknot Snuff

Thursday, June 4, 2009

Musings

It's one of those days I guess oh what fun they are!

If I could turn back time... If I could find a way... I'd take back those things that hurt you, and you'd stay.

hmm old cheesy song by Cher... yup I admit it... it certainly is from a Cher song...

Turn back time... wonderful concept...sometimes we all wish we could i imagine... some things i wish i could do it... other times not.

Any way lol yah i know for some of you none of this makes sense ... but for me... it does and hey it's my blog right? lol

ok musing over