Touchy Subject

This is a tough one to write about, people will read into it, some will think it's about them when it isn't, some who should wont lol and eh ya know life goes on and all that crap.

So how to begin this, I was profile pervin, lol nothing new there, saw a comment I'm pretty positive pertains to me, i found it amusing cuz it was pretty well off base. But then that's nothing new, as we know people see what they want to see to make themselves feel better .

So.. lets see.... a person has/had a friend, someone they enjoyed talking to ... hanging out with now and then.. then suddenly it stops... reasons? who knows really, i think the "friend" isn't telling the whole truth but again it's all always open to interpretation right? So then they suddenly have... I don't know what to call it... a bulldog? watch dog? personal body guard? who doesn't let anyone else close to them, cant hang out with them cuz the watch dog is always there, cant just have friend time again why? ,mhm the new watch dog is there [ and no I'm not calling the person a dog, its just the best description i can come up with] at this point I am amazed the person has any other friends, cuz no one can get close to them. It's amazing then cuz they say oh everyone thinks I'm f*cking the "watch dog" well hmm guess what when that watch dog has their head so far up your ass, i can see why people think it, seriously, I've questioned it myself and honestly i know better or think I do, who knows people can fool you, and amaze you they do every day.
So, because i make comments, which i know now have been passed on, mhm I'm not stupid people, I'm called jealous, well maybe a little but it's more like hurt I guess, it's called sharing? and some just don't do it well I guess.
In the end it's all good, I've learned who is truly a friend [then again we never really know do we?] and who isn't.
So I've a feeling this post may cause some fall out, in the words of someone I actually still think a lot of " it is what it is" after all this is my blog and I am entitled to say what ever i want right?
Now you can read this and think " oh man I know exactly who she is talking about...." or you can take it for what it is... venting or hell I don't know lol i guess you'll do what ever you need to do, I know I will.

I rarely talk about these things... but I am a widow with a couple hellions still at home, imperfect though they are, spoiled, they don't listen but they are mine and I love them. Being a widow is an experience you cannot understand unless of course you've been there. Certain days bring about memories, painful and good, certain times of the year and so on, I am told it gets better with time, I'm hoping for that. Yesterday the twins turned 9.... and the memories flooded in, it was a stressful day, a lot of work trying to give them a party they would enjoy and remember. At the end of it all one did say it was the best party ever, so that was my thanks small but heartfelt and wonderful. I lost someone else yesterday, they cannot and will never understand, am I perfect? Oh gawd I wish I was, but that isn't in the cards, so i deal the best i can with what I have sometimes I do OK sometimes I don't. So many blessings I should just not think about the bad right? Doesn't work that way.
In a couple weeks my Dad's birthday will be here, I wont go into how old he would have been and many of you were with me at SR the day he died, virtually holding my hand and hugging me. Some days it's the best you can ask for.
Life goes on we all say and I guess that's what mine must do.
I close this to a quiet evening at home, the boys were invited to a basketball game , thus I have free time on my hands. Perhaps I'll spend it thinking on the good things and trying to get past the bad. :)

Amusing isn't it?

I find it amusing to read profiles... and even more so when I come across something so blatantly full of shit i have to comment... so I'm reading and I see someone say.." there are 2 sides to every story.. get to know both" lol ok so hrm.. that person has run around my club crying on shoulders... in an attempt to gain friends and create the drama they so claim to dislike... I am amazed every day by this type of shit.. seriously I am.

Thoughts

So.. someone told me long ago on SL... those who cry and rant and go on about Drama in their profiles.... are in actuality the ones who perpetuate it, seem to be smothered in it. And the longer I exist in this virtual world, the more i come to realize they were indeed correct.
Watch people sometime, read profiles... see if it doesn't ring true for you.

It's kinda like someone claiming they care, then finding out they were talking shit about ya behind your back all the while.......remember that old song... " they smile in your face, all the while they wanna take your place... backstabbers" mhm it is so true at times.

It's like an ultimate betrayal, least in my book to tell someone you care and -gasp- even love them then turn around and at the same time tell others crap about the person your claiming to care about.. wow just wow, I'm not sure even I could be that shitty.

So on to bigger and better things yes? Believe it or not, my sl doesn't revolve around running around trying to destroy people, or at the very least make them look bad. Most people make themselves look bad all on their own.

Party on Rockers...

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lol mhm i can tell who that comment came from... so I'm told my blog created drama... -chuckles- good excuse toots ain't holding water and here's why..... 1. no names mentioned...
and lol if someone got upset about something i wrote... then perhaps they need to step back and look at why... if it wasn't in some way true it wouldn't bother you, so if i write about oh lets say.... the vultures of sl... and you take offense then i'd say you are one in some way or at least behave in a similar fashion... cuz if you didn't... it wouldn't bother you.
Victims... mhm I'm seeing one ... man lets talk about trying to play innocent... lol yah right and I'm a saint.
i could have not published that comment about the tags but it's all good i am pretty sure i know who it came from lol and had she not been guilty she wouldn't have felt the need to defend herself and not leave a name.
What you people don't get is... mhm sometimes i do write about people around me... my opinions... this is a blog that's something blogs are about... opinions... but you wont see me use a name, you wont see me give hints cuz that's not how i roll.
Now... I am putting this little chapter behind me, some people, some things are so not worth the time to write about them or the situation. Any further drama coming from them will be handled differently.
have a great day!

I can see clearly now

Funny how suddenly everything comes into focus isn't it? I got handed a pack of lies.... and now... lol mhm i know it, I see you for what you are. How the high and mighty fall.

Oh and one more thing

lol I left an important gripe out... I am reminded today as one of the dj's gives special treatment to the person who does this very thing....,

People that wear their club tag... at other clubs... see i consider this a common courtesy thing, and I am not the only one... many do... especially owners, seriously people... would you like me to stand in your club wearing my "sanctuary Rock owner" tag, let along the plain SR tag? Oh but it gets better.... it really does.... not only does this particular club owner do this.... she had the nerve to im me one day asking about one of my djs because she wanted him to work at her club... wow just wow... social ignorance i guess.... troll for staff much? Seriously this maybe SL but some rules apply here just as RL least in my mind.... I guess some just don't much give a shit.

What , you might be asking yourself... did I say to said person... honestly for once i bit my tongue and said nothing.. I wanted to, but given her behavior thus far I'm guessing bitching her out would have gone right over her head.

Sad isn't it?