Ten Balogh

OK 1st you gotta love his name....2nd..the man gives great pic..mhm he does..rawr 2 new ones he did.. yah he rocks seriously you should look him up and im him about having some done...why? well cuz like i said he rocks!

Ok complete change of subject... pictures in SL some people are just amazingly talented at taking them. Ten Balogh.. took these and well i think he did a awesome job... look him up he has a studio..

Today Is The Last Goodbye

this is it.. the day I should be there saying goodbye... why you might ask aren't I? Well life sometimes just makes it impossible to be where you want or need to be... but ya know... it's really ok... some say i wont forgive myself.. and maybe in someways that's true... but i also know i have said my goodbyes in my own way. I will miss him... I will always always have my memories of what was... and that my friend... is the best anyone could ask for! I'm not crying any more.. because i can still hear my dad calling me the morning my daughter died and saying to me... in his always great yet sometimes off color wisdom... " M get up... do NOT just sit there and let everyone do everything for you... if you crawl into that black hole you will never come out again.. and that would be unforgivable" and though some may find that harsh.. I didn't... i knew exactly what he meant... and why.. and i did what he told me to do... and managed to pull my ass up and move forward.. so once again i follow his words that helped me through not only the loss of my daughter so long ago but my husband 3 years ago.. and a house fire... and now this... You were right dad... and in your words.. "The Show Must Go On" Dad you just keep on giving! I love you and you rock!

A New Rant

I find it sad.. that clubs come along and have to copy other clubs and yes I mean SR. I mean honestly get an original idea...and wow it's amazing one spoke to Daisy just like yesterday and said oh no she wasn't asking SR staff to come to work for her.... ( this is of course an ex employee) but isn't it amazing i fond out today she had indeed along with her "partner" asked staff members to come work there. Now we do not have an exclusivity policy at Sr... but i somehow find ex employees... that do this.. disrespectful.. I would never ask a staff member at the other club i dj at to come work at Sr... to me that's so very rude and totally disrespectful... but again some people cant seem to have an original idea.

Free Bird

This was one of Dad's Favorite songs...mine as well so Dad this ones for you your Free now:)

If I leave here tomorrow
Would you still remember me?
For I must be traveling on, now,
'cause there's too many places I've got to see.
But, if I stayed here with you, girl,
Things just couldn't be the same.
'cause I'm as free as a bird now,
And this bird you can not change.
Oh... oh... oh... oh... oh...
And the bird you cannot change.
And this bird you cannot change.
Lord knows I can't change.
Bye, bye, baby it's been a sweet love.
Yea, yea
Though this feeling I can't change.
But please don't take it so badly,
'cause the lord knows I'm to blame.
But, if I stayed here with you girl,
Things just couldn't be the same.
Cause I'm as free as a bird now,
And this bird you'll can not change.
Oh... oh... oh... oh... oh...
And this bird you cannot change.
And this bird you cannot change.
Lord knows, I can't change.
Lord help me, I can't change.
Lord I can't change,
Won't you fly high free bird yea.

Drift Away

Day after day, I'm more confused
Yet I look for the light through the pourin' rain
You know that's a game that I hate to loose
And I'm feelin' the strain
Ain't it a shame
Oh, give me the beat boys and free my soul
I wanna get lost in your rock n roll
And drift away
Oh, give me the beat boys and free my soul
I wanna get lost in your rock n roll
And drift away
Beginnin' to think that I'm wastin' time
I don't understand the things I do
The world outside looks so unkind
Now I'm countin' on you
To carry me through
Oh, give me the beat boys and free my soul
I wanna get lost in your rock n roll
And drift away
Yea, give me the beat boys and free my soul
I wanna get lost in your rock n roll
And drift away
And when my mind is free
You know a melody can move me
And when I'm feelin' blue
The guitar's comin' through
To soothe me
Thanks for the joy that you've given me
I want you to know I believe in your song
And rhythm and rhyme and harmony
You help me along
Makin' me strong
Oh, give me the beat boys and free my soul
I wanna get lost in your rock n roll
And drift away
Give me the beat boys and free my soul
I wanna get lost in your rock n roll
And drift away
Oh-ho, ah-no
Give me the beat boys and free my soul
I wanna get lost in your rock n roll
And drift away
Hey, hey, hey, yeah
Give me the beat boys and free my soul
I wanna get lost in your rock n roll
And drift away
Na, Na, now won't ya
Won't ya take me
Oh-ha, take me

Dobie Grey- Drift Away

In The End....

In the end.. everyone loses.... something or someone they hold dear.... each person has their memories... each feels his/her pain acutely. no one can say their loss is greater than another. It just doesn't work that way. Pain.. is part of being human... to inflict it is also part of being human. To be attacked publicly.... well I guess if that makes a person feel better then so be it. What ever it takes to get them through the day I suppose.
I have done and said many things i regret... i have bitched and complained with the best of them. However at this stage i refuse to get into a public pissing match as it were with anyone. You may say.. isn't that what your doing now? Well no not really... I've named no names... Ive not hurled any insults. I am merely rambling here.. thoughts.... feelings....to have those two things makes me human... though apparently to some they make me... childish... egotistical....selfish... well perhaps i have been those things at times... but i say" let he who is with out sin cast the 1st stone" yah good luck on that one.

To My Dad

while I'm on a roll.... yet another loss.. this one even tougher.... this morning while DJing at SR i recieved a call from my step-mother...my father had passed away... he was 66.. not that old when you think about it. Memories.. i have so many and i will cherish them... i think my fondest being his habit of playing a song at the end of his radio show... for me each night... after saying this is for you .. Im coing home. When i was 6 it was the Beatles... all you need is love.. when i was a teenager..it was.. elton John.. Your song. Yes my father was a rl DJ...Radio his medium... later years he did a show on internet radio. I love him... and will miss him terribly. I have a couple songs i dedicated to his this morning... one being In my Life.. of course remade by Ozzy... and Sevendust- angels son. Both have a lot of meaning .. both will always make me tear up a little...and yet smile... at those awesome memories.

I love you Dad.

Life is changing I can't go on without you
Rearranging. I will be strong I'll stand by you
(You were fighting everyday)
(So hard to hide the pain)
(I know you never said goodbye)
(I had so much left to say)
One last song
Given to an Angel's Son
As soon as you were gone
As soon as you were gone
I have a new life now
She lives through you
What can I do
Feel so alone now
I pray for you
We still love you
I can't believe you're gone
I can't believe

Sevendust-Angels son

SR

This is so hard to write.... I'm losing my best friend.... Daisy is leaving me.... and Sanctuary Rock...i know and understand the reasons... and i give her major props for doing what needs to be done... but still my sl will be a little less brighter with out her here. I looked through old pictures... smiled.. cried... and realized she wont ever really be gone... she will live on in SR.. it will remain as she made it. I'll make sure of it.

Daisy I love you.. I am proud to call you friend.. and I will miss you.