..........

I have been to
the highest of highs

the lowest of lows

and many places in between

I think I am once more

in a place in between

Not on a high

not feeling low

But.. a level of...

confusion...

once again confusion

or perhaps it is insecurity.

Rude People

I guess it needs be said... people that come to clubs just to heckle those working there.... sadly it happens all too often... some claim to be having fun, to be joking... others do it to prove a point perhaps... or make themselves feel better... or even better those that do it because someone put them up to it. Tonight I had one that used to come to the club... I never had a cross word with him in the past... used to think he was a nice guy honestly.... and yet tonight he showed up and immediately began to "abuse" me in open chat.... slapping me around like I was his slave... poking me stabbing me...now I am all for having fun but I guess I dont find abuse funny even in a game. And men abusing women? hmmm sorry thats all too realistic... why would anyone come to a game where you should have fun to emmulate the ugliness of the real world....to me this speaks of his maturity ... or his mind set... -chuckles- then he tells me in ims to take a prozac and that I have no sense of humor, well I do actually... just not for beating women even in jest. Perhaps he should stay on the Gorean sim. At some point I got the feeling he was trying to get me to eject him, sadly I could not accomodate him. At any rate...Belyeu Vansant -chuckles- you've made my blog... at least you got your 5 minutes of something. I'd say shame myself.... certainly not fame.
And... how was your day?

The Best Damn Thing

You're not alone
Together we stand
I'll be by your side
You know I'll take your hand
When it gets cold
And it feels like the end
There's no place to go
You know I won't give in
No, I won't give in
Keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through
Just stay strong
Cause you know I'm here for you
I'm here for you
There's nothing you can say
Nothing you can do
There's no other way
when it comes to the truth
So, keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through
So far awayI wish you were here
Before it's too late
This could all disappear
Before the door's closed
And it comes to an end
With you by my side
I will fight and defend
I'll fight and defend, yeah, yeah
Keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through
Just stay strong
Cause you know I'm here for you
I'm here for you
There's nothing you can say
Nothing you can do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So, keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through
Hear me when I say
When I say "I believe.
Nothing's gonna change
Nothing's gonna change destiny
Whatever's meant to be
Will work out perfectly
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
La da da da, la da da daLa da da da da da da da da
Keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through
Just stay strong
Cause you know I'm here for you
I'm here for you
There's nothing you can say
Nothing you can do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So, keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through
-Ahh, ahh-Keep holding on-Ahh, ahh-Keep holding on
There's nothing you can say
Nothing you can do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So, keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through

The Best Damn Thing-Avril

Another Day

The club sceene in SL ... wow so many places all working for a piece of that virtual pie....It's funny... but having working in only clubs since I first found SL... as a host or dancer and now as a DJ.... I find I respect those that make it with out the use of campers to show traffic... campers lol sadly if you need campers... in my book then your not chit. I would rather have low traffic and be able to say people come for the Staff.....and the atmosphere....than to boast high traffic which is mostly because you have 30+ campers. Maybe it's easy for me to say that.. Sanctuary is a old and well known club... but I have worked at smaller ones too and I always felt that sense of pride when I could say they aint here for the camping chairs. Anyway thats my opinion for what its worth.

It Never Ends

I have to laugh.. well I do a lot any way .. seems someone starrted a new group Banned from SR .. omg lol too funny... poor dear just keeps trying to convince people that it was all a personal vendetta... funny thing about that, many that sided with him at first have come back .. I can only guess they have found he is full of shit. Sadly he created his own ban... what makes me laugh more I think is that the group has 3 members... 2 of which are not banned lol yah ok comedy in SL gotta love it! ahh well another day.. in that alternate universe SL!

When you scream it sounds like a lullaby

When you beg I get all gooey inside

Tonight I take your eyes, mind, and tongue

to spread the word,

watch your Kingdom Come

Another night with you,

another wound,

You keep me in stitches,

you tear me to pieces

I need new voices in my head,

to speak my secret evils with

I need new lovers in my bed,

to be my friends and special pets

I need your scent all over me

I need to taste your blasphemy

I need to know with certainty

The nectar was worth the squeeze

It just the way that we're diseased

It's the plague that stains us

It's the sweetest disease

It's so contagious

Once upon a time I ripped the wings from my spine

But when I hide inside your eyes

I still pretend that I can fly

Tell me a secret

so you can fall in love then fall to pieces

I need new voices in my head,

a new disguise for me to hide

I need new lovers in my bed,

to feed my secret appetites

I need your (scents/sins) all over me,

I need to taste this tragedy

I need to know with certainty,

that the nectar was worth the squeeze

It just the way that we're diseased

It's the plague that stains us

It's the sweetest disease

It's so contagious

It's just a game we play in the dark [other whispered stuff]

We scream it sounds like a lullaby

When you beg I get all gooey inside,

Tonight I take your eyes and tongue

to spread the word

and watch you come

you keep me in stitches,

you tear me to pieces

It just the way that we're diseased

It's the plague that stains us

It's the sweetest disease

It's so contagious

Otep - Special Pets -smiles- For my Baby

Drama

Drama... can SL possibly exist with out it? I wish I could say yes... but that would be a lie. People always wish to see what they wish... blame everyone else... never take a share of it. It's funny I am always willing to take my share... hey I am far from perfect... possibly one of the most difficult people I know. You make friends in this game... some stand by you no matter...they dont change .. they don't say one thing do another. Others change over time for what ever reasons.. it happens.. be it for a man... or a sl job or what ever... the point is... when people change and do everything they said they never would... it changes the friendship. And sometimes there is just no repairing it. I wish I could have adjusted to the changes... but I could not. Sadly it happens. Do I miss those this has happened with? Indeed I do. But life goes on you deal and you adjust.

Guys..... wow... some fall in love over night.. which frightens me... they change partners in sl like underwear... always have a gaggle in the wings waiting for their number to come up. I ty for honesty... I try to be kind... maybe sometimes I am too kind.. I let people live on my land free.. give them a home in sl...do what I can to help oddly enough I get told I used them... wow I didnt realize giving someone things was a form of using... I'll have to keep that in mind and pehaps curb my kindness. Because I have always prided myself on having my own... not relying on anyone for anything material or even emotional in this game. But I have never minded sharing what I have. So I hope some people are most happy with themselves and the things they said and did. You lost a fiend... one that would have stood by you.... but like I always say... se la vie.