To My Dad

while I'm on a roll.... yet another loss.. this one even tougher.... this morning while DJing at SR i recieved a call from my step-mother...my father had passed away... he was 66.. not that old when you think about it. Memories.. i have so many and i will cherish them... i think my fondest being his habit of playing a song at the end of his radio show... for me each night... after saying this is for you .. Im coing home. When i was 6 it was the Beatles... all you need is love.. when i was a teenager..it was.. elton John.. Your song. Yes my father was a rl DJ...Radio his medium... later years he did a show on internet radio. I love him... and will miss him terribly. I have a couple songs i dedicated to his this morning... one being In my Life.. of course remade by Ozzy... and Sevendust- angels son. Both have a lot of meaning .. both will always make me tear up a little...and yet smile... at those awesome memories.

I love you Dad.

Life is changing I can't go on without you
Rearranging. I will be strong I'll stand by you
(You were fighting everyday)
(So hard to hide the pain)
(I know you never said goodbye)
(I had so much left to say)
One last song
Given to an Angel's Son
As soon as you were gone
As soon as you were gone
I have a new life now
She lives through you
What can I do
Feel so alone now
I pray for you
We still love you
I can't believe you're gone
I can't believe

Sevendust-Angels son

SR

This is so hard to write.... I'm losing my best friend.... Daisy is leaving me.... and Sanctuary Rock...i know and understand the reasons... and i give her major props for doing what needs to be done... but still my sl will be a little less brighter with out her here. I looked through old pictures... smiled.. cried... and realized she wont ever really be gone... she will live on in SR.. it will remain as she made it. I'll make sure of it.

Daisy I love you.. I am proud to call you friend.. and I will miss you.

Tiny Empires

It's amazing to me how people set rules.... and yet they get broken daily... hourly by the minute.... and all of those that break them... get away with it... and yet... I break a rule... and I am made an example of... -chuckles- I am truely the black queen.. black sheep... cat how ever you'd like to say it. My crime? Defending another Monarch.... and telling yet another to piss off for insulting the frist.... ok so perhaps i should have said nothing... like i usually do but ya know.. we all have our breaking point.. and i had reached mine. The punishment.. well theres the kicker... I was kicked out of the chat group for monarchs....for a week. Well heres the thing... if I am to be made an example of then ya best be doing the same to everyone else.... oh wait I forgot -smacks head- Im the back sheep what was I thinking? So when the punishment is up will I go back? nope I wont .. why? Well lets see.... my 1st morning out of the group has been peaceful.. wonderfully so.. and if i am to be made an example of then i'll just stay that example and stay out of the group... i dont need the headache... I just plain old dont need it..... so moral of the story.... if your not a top ten... then keep your mouth shut, and don't defend one of them cuz you'll be the one going down. At least thats what this whole lil episode has taught me. will I still play? You bet Im stubborn... and I worked too hard to toss it out the window. However i wont spend another linden to line anyones pocket on the game. That much you can bank on.

Dirty Lynx

Another kick ass store... mhm go have a look see... dirty Lynx.....their web page is also in my links.

MASSIVE ATHAKS

So it's been awhile since i talked about cool places to shop.. it's been awhile since i've done much but bitch..lol mhm I know... so I found this place awhile back.. she doesnt have tons of stuff but what she does have kicks ass....MASSIVE ATHAKS.. urban.. neko.. grunge.. yah her stuff is awesome...it's worth searcrhing the name and going to have a look see.... I would suggest hitting the main shop.

Somethings Terribly Wrong

I am noticing a trrend that completely sucks.. in my opinion... Clubs drawing huge traffic.. and why? Well lets see.. campers.. money trees.. cheap freebies.... ok so ... these places are huge.. impersonal and laggy as hell [no difference there] Why would anyone wanting to actually enjoy good music venture to those places? Honestly I would hope they dont. I would hope those that have been in Second life awhile would know the difference between flash and trash and a honest to goodness kick ass club. And to be fair... while i am understandably biased.... i will admit there are other clubs out there that also fall into the latter category.

Finality

I've posted these lyrics before... but i guess I'm feeling fed up... tired of the same old "wait.. I'm busy working" bs.... the you wait while i handle this or that .. but be there when I decide it's your turn... mhm I'm declaring my independance... I'm walking away from the bs. Find someone else to believe your shit cuz it aint gonna be me any more.





Well you can tell ev'ryone I'm a damned disgrace
Drag my name all over the place.
I don't care anymore.
You can tell ev'rybody 'bout the state I'm in
You won't catch me crying 'cos I just can't win.
I don't care anymore I don't care anymore
I don't care what you say
I don't play the same games you play.
'Cos I've been talking to the people that you call your friends
And it seems to me there's a means to and end.
They don't care anymore.
And as for me I can sit here and bide my time
I got nothing to lose if I speak my mind.
I don't care anymore I don't care no more
I don't care what you say
We never played by the same rules anyway.
I won't be there anymore
Get out of my way
Let me by
I got better things to do with my time
I don't care anymore I don't care anymore
I don't care anymore I don't care anymore
Well, I don't care now what you say
'Cos ev'ry day I'm feeling fine with myself
And I don't care now what you say
Hey I'll do alright by myself'
Cos I know.
'Cos I remember all the times I tried so hard
And you laughed in my face 'cos you held all the cards.
I don't care anymore.
And I really ain't bothered what you think of me
'Cos all I want of you is just a let me be.
I don't care anymore D'you hear? I don't care no more
I don't care what you say
I never did believe you much anyway.
I won't be there no more
So get out of my way.
Let me by
I got better things to do with my time
I don't care anymore
D'you hear? I don't care anymore
I don't care no more
You listening?
I don't care no more
No more
You know I don't care no more
no more no more no more....