MirCat

Y....

2012-01-24T11:56:00.000-08:00

Yes, yellow, ahh yes yellow lol the lemony sunny color yellow... not much else I can say

X

2012-01-15T17:19:00.000-08:00

X is a hard one Xtra... Xylophone? X marks the spot?
lol I give up on X!

no music so I'm sharing a totally unrelated video but I thought it was funneh!

Wandering

2012-01-10T14:16:00.001-08:00

W yeah wandering and wondering I suppose.... Lost, confused all that good stuff.

V...

2011-12-29T12:43:00.000-08:00

hrm V... Vanity we all have a little even if we think we dont. It can manifest in the time spent on yourself in rl, to look good, cosmectics, clothes, hell even plastic surgery. In SL it isnt much different though perfection is possibly more attainable, well visably any way. Music.. Van Halen well Van Hagar lol probably one of my fav songs of that era of the band.

Oh my

2011-12-21T20:25:00.000-08:00

Had to put this here...

Ok had to digress

2011-12-20T13:43:00.001-08:00

this is hillarious damn you Dilly

U...

2011-12-19T16:42:00.000-08:00

U ugg what a letter... Uber Unknown, under, hrm I'm lost on this one lol lemme think here.. ok people do things, often for reasons unknown to yourself. yes I'm stretching it here.

music lol yeah dun die

T

2011-12-17T21:50:00.000-08:00

Ok I am still plugging away on this challenge even if Locke gave up the ghost :(
T.. tarnish, jewelry, silverware,dreams,friendships all can become tarnished. The become dull, and damaged on some level if you will. Music.. Tantric

S..

2011-12-14T19:21:00.000-08:00

Shit....what to use for S.. Stress? It's a common complaint this time of year, deffinately have my share like everyone else. Kids... Holidays you name it blah. so yeah Stress will be the word of the day...and the song? Under Pressure of course :)

R..

2011-12-01T14:22:00.000-08:00

Man I am RUNNING Behind lol note how I worked that one in. Holidays are here so that means there will be RUSHING, and RINGING Bells and RANDOM posts like this one :P
Seriously I wasn't expecting life to get quite so hectic yet but it is what it is I suppose. Music wise .. hmm just recently finished Keith Richard's book, it was a good book indeed so for R lets go with Rolling Stones, song? man so many good ones to choose from but I am picking this one...

oh and since we are on the subject Richards, Keith man I do love this song

Q

2011-11-29T10:11:00.000-08:00

hmm everyone else has used Queen and yeah I do love me some Queen let me try and not use them lol. Quiet.. there's a word I like a lot... Quiet... in a house that is often loud and rowdy quiet is awesome, in a SL that used to be filled with much noise... quiet is amazing. yep I think I am liking this thing called quiet!

Music lets try Quiet Riot Cum On Feel The Noise :P

P

2011-11-26T22:18:00.000-08:00

I figure if I get a couple in tonight and a couple in tomorrow I might get caught up!
P... procrastinate..purple..Prince...popular...polite...music wise his purpleness himself.. Prince, we wont even go into how long I have admired this man.

Gotta add this one rawr

O

2011-11-26T22:09:00.000-08:00

Oh boy am I behind! lol well in my defense I was out of town Weds afternoon through Sat afternoon, hey its a airtight alabi! hrm O... Octopus? Oragatang, outside, over,old,
For music yeah I have to go with Otis Redding cuz he is classic and obviously amazing

N.

2011-11-22T15:37:00.000-08:00

N... nothing...never,new,now,not,nnnnun ya business? Yeah I got nothing for N I guess, sorry kinda going along with my mood I suppose.

M

2011-11-20T13:33:00.000-08:00

M would be Music for me. Music is a muse to many, the beat many live by. Music adds to so many memories, a song often brings to mind a person place or thing. So there you have it my M word .. music :)

Music wise.. Mars, Bruno

L...

2011-11-16T13:53:00.000-08:00

L.. I'm gonna go with "Letting Go" perhaps I am playing devils advocate a little, perhaps not, I see people hurting, and unhappy and mhm it's all easier to say than do but here goes.
1. Let Go Of :: To let go of something to stop holding on.

*Letting go doesn't mean giving up,but rather accepting that there are things that cannot be.~ Anonymous

*Letting go has never been easy,but holding on can be as difficult.Yet strength is measured not by holding on but by letting go.~Len Santos

*Breathe.Let go.And remind yourself that this very moment is the only one you know for sure you have.~ Oprah Winfrey

Anyway, not judging at all, just thoughts that popped in my head from reading other blogs. To know someone is hurting, even if your past with them is sketchy, still makes me sad. Then again I have always been a mothering sort, and wish I could fix all the hurts I encounter.
And to go totally in a different direction for music? Lordi of course!

K...

2011-11-15T19:40:00.000-08:00

Kindness.. many things come to mind, kindness can take many forms from a word, a touch ,doing small things for others. But notably I think of the old movie...A Street Car Named Desire.. and the words of Blanche,
"Whoever you are, I have always depended on the Kindness of strangers." Great old movie :)

J....

2011-11-14T07:06:00.001-08:00

Joe Cocker lol gotta be done

I...

2011-11-13T18:32:00.000-08:00

I'm a day late and a linden short as per usual, yesterday was a incredibly busy rl day, so I'm rushing this one beside I is a difficult letter lol so let's go with a group called In This Moment and a song I love, I will let Locke have INXS lol :P

And this cover by them as well woot it is awesome

H.

2011-11-11T18:08:00.000-08:00

Well here I am at H, hmm how do I decide on a good H word, Help? Happy?Let's go with Help. it's 11/11/11 after all and yep those men and women who serve whether in active duty or in the guards... they help, they risk their lives so we can live as we do.. I've not a lot to say today, been a busy day hunting season, lots of extra peeps around the house, kids had eye doctors appointments HELP!!! lol sorry had to toss that in. Any way thank you to all of you who selflessly serve our country.

G

2011-11-10T14:42:00.000-08:00

G.. Grief perhaps is where I am going to go, I know I blogged not long ago it was a post for a friend mostly, but here we go again. Grief is really rather daunting when you think about it, it can consume us, it can over whelm us, dealing with it in "healthy" ways can be good for us. Everyone at some point in their lives most likely will or has already experienced it. There are many reasons for grief, and it is as individual as people are. I think back to last year, one of my twins lost a class mate, he was 9 years old, lost too soon in a farming accident. This time I could help my son express his feelings better I believe than I could when he was 4 and his father passed away.
He still even a year later will suddenly say something about his lost friend, just every now and then a memory will pop in his head and he tells me... it makes me smile a lil knowing he seems able to express his thoughts rather than bury them. When I was a much younger person , and I woke one morning to find my 2nd child dead in her crib, nothing could have ever prepared me for that grief, however as time went on I became a parent to parent contact and helped other parents get through the tidal waves of emotions that crash into you, I even went on to do public speaking on the subject of dealing with parents after the loss of a child. At the time these outlets helped me heal as much as it helped others I believe. Years passed, and then you begin to lose others... father in law, mother in law, husband, father. Grief I believe is what you make of it, my own father said to me when i called him to break the news of my daughters passing.. he said "Do not sit down and let others do for you, get up , get moving, if you crawl into that hole you wont ever come out!" It may sound harsh to some, but he knew what I needed to hear and I still remember and thank my lucky stars he was intuitive enough to say it. I have dealt with grief while working as a volunteer on our community ambulance, families sometimes throw misplaced grief in the form of anger at you, it happens. As a nurse working with the elderly again grief was all around either the resident themselves or the family . So.. now that I have babbled on and on and on...I'm gonna stop and close this rather lengthy and probably depressing post thank goodness tomorrow is the letter H!? And leave you with a song for my Dad.

F...

2011-11-09T14:33:00.000-08:00

F is not gonna be my fav letter, hmm Fabulous Thunderbirds,Faderhead,Five Finger Death Punch,Filter, and on the groups go. Or words like Fun,fast,far freaking out,and so on so instead I'm gonna be lazy and go with a band and a video :P so I leave you with Fivefinger Death Punch and one of my all time favorite cover songs

Oh and this awesome dress from -tb- C88 so Fifties! woot another F word!

E....

2011-11-08T14:00:00.000-08:00

E.. education comes to mind foremost.
Education starts at home they say and I firmly believe that. Parents, grandparents and others teach a child early on, right from wrong, values, morals, beliefs. Children learn from everywhere in a sense, summer camp, church if they go, their friends and so on. Then they go to school, and begin to learn from teachers, those we pay and entrust with teaching them the things they need to learn.
When I was a volunteer paramedic, people used to tell me that it took a special person to do what I and the other crew members did, and perhaps that is so, but I think it takes a special person to teach and teach well. The rewards I believe, at least for me, were not monetary[lol we didn't get paid to teach the 1st responders], they were instead the feeling of accomplishment when a student "got" a hands on technique, such as stopping bleeding or applying mast pants. Or the tears of joy of a family member when a patient was saved or transported to the hospital.
There are teachers and then there are TEACHERS. The skill of teaching from the book is simple enough, but the skill of making a child pay attention, to awaken their minds and senses to something new, to make them understand, that's a TEACHER and a rather amazing thing. When I sit down with my boys I am often amazed and humbled by these teachers who take a class of 25 10 year olds and teach them, no easy task.
So now that I have rambled on and on I will leave you with yet another old video :)

D

2011-11-07T14:02:00.000-08:00

D brings to mind many things and I was torn between a couple so I'm gonna start with DANCING... something I've done since I can remember. Dancing is relaxing, energizing,good exercize and a wonderful form of expression I mean Dirty Dancing? rawr., so first thought is Billy Idol, also that sneer mm mmm mm anyway this old song is still a favorite

Def Leopard, amazing band, also waited while their drummer healed and taught himself to drum again after a horrific car crash. Many bands wouldnt have waited, says a lot about them in my book.

C... Calm

2011-11-06T17:33:00.000-08:00

Today's letter is C. Calm is what I think of first. The new calm I feel now, SL has become calm and relaxing, and I am lovin every minute of it. I thank Locke for giving me the little push I needed to let go, I am a happier person, I am actually more me than I have been in a long time :)

B.. is for...

2011-11-05T19:04:00.000-07:00

Hmm B lol I can think of a lot of things to use, I'm torn on which. B is for Broken Spoke... where I dJ'd today, nerves? you bet, tons of them I could have shared with several people. Locke.. thank you for talking me down and also Brian, Ras, and Drion who all listened to me moan and groan and basiclly have fits lol
Went well, had lots of fun, yay! No picture for it so Ill add one of my boys.... also a B yes? lol my sons Arlen, left, William Right and the grandbaby Lucian in the middle yay for my boys!

A is for.....

2011-11-04T16:42:00.000-07:00

hmm A is for many things..... but I think I'll go out on a limb here and say Abs! rawr plenty of them in this video yummy.. oh and if ya need Locke's blog link here it is lol http://abjectvoid.blogspot.com/

Challenge

2011-11-04T09:12:00.000-07:00

I have challenged Locke.. Mr. Procrastinator to a blog challenge... lol easy one this round the alphabet, of course he said yes, then said ... in true Lockness " Start Tomorrow?" lol I do adores him.. anyway so yes it should be fun to see what he comes up with, maybe others wish to join? Lemme know

Yi

2011-10-29T08:38:00.000-07:00

Yi.. means Gift... mhm every day is a gift...every breath one takes....just everything. Sometimes it doesn't seem like it, but it is. any way that's enough of me getting all silly I wanted to show off Yi.. my Kabuki 'roo.. a gift from Locke :) She is purdy! she is the white one the lower one well that's my Emporer.. Elvis.. - grin- mhm Elvis is alive and well and living as a Meeroo on mah sim!

I Wish

2011-10-25T11:12:00.000-07:00

So I was reading a friends blog .. she recently lost her father and the pain for her is still raw , like a wound, fresh, trying to scab over and heal but you move and there it goes again. I wish I had the magic words for her, fact is I don't, no one does, sure I could say look Momma, I'm a old pro at this.. lost my 2nd born daughter, lost my Mother, my father, my husband, his parents, my grandparents, but fact is, everyone has to go through it themselves, everyone has to deal, to experience the pain, the emotions all of it. I can offer my hand, my shoulder, my ear to be there when she needs to share, yes that I can do. But those steps, much like the first steps a child takes are ones she must take in her own way, her own time. It's a helpless feeling sometimes, wishing you could make things better when you cant, knowing you have to let them go through this and just be there. I can say .. yes, though you may not believe it at this moment, there is a light at the end of this tunnel, one that will shine again, when your ready. There will come a day, slowly when you smile more than cry. When the memories hurt less. Be patient with yourself, don't be too hard on yourself. Allow yourself to remember, to work through those memories. And remember I am always here, and always willing to listen.

Onward and up.. er somewhere

2011-10-19T12:34:00.000-07:00

So I have decided no more angry posts I'm so over it all... on to happy things fun things.. Roos? yup we haz them and we enjoy them. I noted in Guen's blog she has been involved in some new and exciting things and I am happy for her, always good to see people further their SL work :) Way to go Guen! Kudos are usually in short supply so well done and congratz. I have not posted here much been posting in the other one I made which is simply clothes ... yes me and clothing in sl a long term love affair. I hope to get out and explore a bit more now that things are settling down into a nice quiet place. That is if I can drag Mr. Procrastination away from the roos and off the sim lol.

I don't Care

2011-10-12T17:54:00.000-07:00

I know negative sounding title , but in truth it is more me saying, hey people, I don't give a damn any more about who djs where who's doing what with whom or where.. seriously live and let live, I spent so much time giving multitudes of chances to people who did nothing but treat me like shit behind my back, and now... I'd just appreciate being left alone. I am content, happy, and seriously that's what every one's SL should be.. happy and fun yes? Friends? well if you really are one then by all means holler, drop an im ... you might be surprised how much people can change when not faced with the endless bs they were before. :) On ward and upward yes?

And So

2011-10-08T11:03:00.000-07:00

Someone said i should do a fashion blog.. ok well that's a great idea except everyone and their brother does one, and although I tend to go buy the latest items offered from my favorite designers, I usually don't wear them immediately, yep I am slow. But I started one anyway so.. all daily outfits will be there from now on be prepared for older stuff lol. Link is in my list to the side :P

Part 2

2011-09-14T07:51:00.001-07:00

Today is about the dress.... The dress took me a long time to find one I like and even at the end I was torn between 2 styles from the same designer, but given the setting of the wedding I chose the one that best fit. .I enlisted the help of Guenevere DeCuir to make a tatt that fit the feel of the dress, given the the feel of India to it she suggested a Henna wedding tatt, and that is what she made including a bindi, it is an amazing tatt, very delicate, it fit the dress perfectly. The rest were bits and oieces picked up here and there to go with the over all outdoors feel. A huge thanks to Guen for completing the dress :)

Hair - Truth- Nicola
Skin- ~Mynerva-Kia,Apricot
Flower hair wreath - +FS+ Flower Vine Set
Ears - .:DD:. - Elf Ears-Roses-White tipped
Dress - MiaMai Wedding Collection - Arcadia
Tatt - .:Coll:. - specially made for me by Guen :)
Bare Feet - Similar
Bouquest - {not shown -sorry} - ::Phenix:: Lily and Roses Lg - Off white
Nails - Mandala - Nail Pallette 2 /short

Setting Up

2011-09-13T09:01:00.000-07:00

So I did something I swore I would never do, get SL married. Even in SL weddings are work, either you hire someone and pay a ton of lindens or, you do it yourself. Personally doing it ourselves seemed much more personal, and I think made the day a little more special.
So with the help of old friend Casper priestman who provided the land with 6k prims to spare lol I managed to set up and use less than 1k prims. Any way this post IM just gonna include some pics of the set up, why? cuz I want to! In the end it was a fun evening shared by some of our oldest friends in SL, Dont worry I will post more later :P

{What Next} - Chairs and tables,lanterns on the tables,lights along dance floor,"alter" [these are great weathered wood look and copy!]

~*Forest Floor*~ flowers, trees

Meant To Be- Princess wedding cake

Weddings By Nienna - wedding drink table { lol had to have vodka for UC!}

Fairy Tales Wedding Supplies - Gift Table

Hmmm, just hmmm

2011-08-17T17:26:00.001-07:00

2011-08-17T17:25:00.001-07:00

So standing around with Locke, the roos and a couple alts... lol mhm we are really exciting people, anywho thought i would blog the outfit cuz I can and eh what else do I have to do between petting the roos, playing TE and exploring sl. yes, life is good.

Hair- Lelutka - Brigitte

skin- Mynerva, Kia,sepia

outfit- Razorblade Jacket- I wish on pink stars set leggings with micro skirt and worn tube top 2 [pink rules]

Shoes - Mstyle Rivea Pumps Magenta
Nails-Mandala- kabuki pink of course

Onward

2011-08-07T19:59:00.000-07:00

yep moving on :P

Hair - Truth-Miku, Burgundy

Skin - ~Mynerva~ Kia Sepia

Makeup -_Damned_ catseye makeup

Tattoo - {Glue Ink} Pretty Princess, and Glue Ink Bow

Lashes - AMD Ultimate Lashes feathered

Collar - Red Mint 03

Dress- Sn@tch Milla net Shirt Army with panties

Belt - The Abyss FM_NAU Combat belt

Cuffs - Ha! O-Ring Cuffs - black

Nails- Mandala Milky way Rings and nails gaga black

shoes- J's platform pumps , black

Time To Say Goodnight

2011-08-04T14:28:00.000-07:00

So, I have passed the proverbial torch... so many reasons, so many years of being bitched at and about, people who have no clue how stressful it can be keeping a place like that going. In the end the choice I made... was partially the right one, partially not, Daisy would be livid, I'm sure, but I guess it cannot be helped, it leaves a bitter taste in my mouth as well, but whats done is done, time to move on. I have learned who my friends who and who they aren't through this, of that I am amazed, people I wouldn't have expected to IM and offer kind words, and offers of this or that, those who I thought were friends who couldn't be bothered to IM because apparently they were too busy tripping over themselves to suck up to the new owner. At any rate at least I know right? I am walking away completely, I cannot bear to even be there, I just cant, my reasons are many and my own. To those of you who helped make SR awesome, thank you, and I hope you continue to visit and make it amazing still. SR is no longer my home, but it still has a place in my heart.

Thoughts

2011-07-16T18:55:00.000-07:00

Ok so I've been thinking a lot last couple days and I feel the need to just sit down and type this out, it is about the one thing in SL that just absolutely baffles me... So, a rl married couple, been together a good number of years, are suddenly experiencing some issues. True I dont know all of it, but the things I do know are this, one of them had SL partnerships to others, one has not that I know of. Suddenly that one who hasn't, meets a 23 year old girl yep I call a 23 year old a girl, they aren't that mature yet no matter how you slice it. So, suddenly there is drama going on the partner who met this lil chick is suddenly ending his rl marriage and so on. Now, maybe the other party is jealous, perhaps too jealous, and maybe one could say whats good for one should be good for the other. Here in lies my issue.... is some lil girl who hasn't a clue about how relationships work worth giving up a long standing marriage? Does the one who has had partners in SL have a right to even be upset? I don't know ... I guess this all goes back to what I have said all along.. Married people have no business fooling around in SL... someone always gets hurt. Marriages can be ruined, children upset, you name it, it can happen. This saddens me, and strengthens my beliefs on the married in RL = single in SL.

What The Heck

2011-06-02T19:58:00.000-07:00

No complaints.. what? OMG Mir have ya lost yer mind? why no I haven't really just not feeling like saying much of anything really yeah I know utterly shocking isn't it?

Hair - Maitreya Joy III Red

skin - Mynerva Kianna Raven Shade 6

Tattoos - addixion Love Gun

outfit-Caliente Express capris w/ suspender pink

shoes- Sim-I-lar Vicenza, black

FacePalms

2011-05-25T13:42:00.001-07:00

Ok so the usual SL crap happens yes? the people that treat ya like dirt cuz they found new toys to stroke their egos , and all that good stuff..... you know .. lol the usual sl drama, anyway now and then the funny stuff happens the facepalm moments and I think this is one... Imdy she did bad things to my Lady gaga bear skin coat! it will never ever be the same! PS the smiley faces are hawt!

The Usual or..Another Day Another Lie

2011-02-18T03:37:00.000-08:00

Ok so we all know SL is like a breeding ground for anyone wanting to study Psychology especially abnormal behavior. I mean seriously people come into the game, and suddenly they lose their morals, they become cyber addicts, they lie, cheat and yep some steal. Now to blame it all on sl is wrong. I mean the behaviors have to come from somewhere already right? When in SL it seems because there are no consequences people just suddenly become players, whores and ... eh not so nice people.

example...

here's an amusing example

guy: oh i was such a player before i met you but i want to change that now.

translation: Yeah I wanna shag your avi rotten and I'll say what ever i need to say to get the job done.

Example 2
person- I'm stepping back i didn't listen I've fallen for you and i know ,i know you said not to, so I'm going to step back, and be friends like you said.

translation- you didn't give me what I want fast enough so go away now I need to go get laid, and will have you replaced in a few hours.

wait though it gets better... when confronted they say... but you made me feel like i was good enough to fuck and nothing else you hurt me... lol seriously? after admitting what a man ho you are and your gonna say that shit? not to mention lie when your saying it? lol wise up dude seriously...sooner or later people will realize what a lying whining piece of shit you really are

*takes a deep breath then smiles* ok onward we go

lol anyway I have learned.. people don't really change much no matter what they say, not in sl anyway, once a lying.. cheating man ho always one.. lol leopards dun change their spots ladies, and no matter what you think, your probably not gonna be the one to change him.

Stealing.. well Ive ranted about copy bots and all that so many times but yeah stealing peoples designs ....it sucks and it's wrong. Thee are people in here that earn a living on what they make, it's tough to do when people steal your designs. It sucks.. nuff said.

Belated V Day look..
Hair- Truth
Dress,wings - Sn@tch
skin - AMD
socks- WWI
Boots - Last Edan

Modeling

2011-02-02T19:42:00.000-08:00

Ok i have some gripes but lol I'm gonna save them this pic was done by Kehl Razor for his shop Razorblade jacket wow is all I can say he made the avi look good!

1st time I have modeled!

Seriously Folks

2010-11-19T07:30:00.000-08:00

So I log in today in a rush I needed to post some events and get out of SL, it's my twins Birth day today and i have a lot to get done before their party later.. any way I log into a complaint passed on to me from the GM. The complaint? Was about a designers t-shirt. The person felt is contained objectionable content. Hmm well to some yes it does...but in the end it boils down to this...we are a mature sim therefore you may well see things that offend you. Am I supposed to kick people out of the club for being naked, or wearing objectionable clothing? Or lets look at it from another angle, anyone who has been in SL long enough... who knows anything about clubs knows they are money pits, they take lindens to run.. and the malls attached to clubs bring in a major portion of the income generated to pay tier and events, often it can be touch and go on whats brought in and making said tier. So am I to kick out a vendor because someone didn't like what a t-shirt they are selling says? and if I kick that vendor and their rent is needed to make tier what then? I close the club because again 1 person found the content objectionable? And I tell all the other people what? Sorry this one person didn't like what a vendor was selling so I kicked the vendor out and I couldn't make tier? lol maybe I should give out the name to all the people that would complain too. In the end I cannot please everyone, I gave up on that long ago. I do suggest sending complaints where they belong which is to the designer, not the club or mall owner.

In Light

2010-11-08T11:06:00.001-08:00

Ok wow the last comment on my cheating post just .. stunned me... not in a bad way more like a wait... what? way. So I am going to be totally random and post a series of pics.. why? cuz I can :P Imagine if you will Mir at a ski lodge [tries not to laugh too hard, even though I her Mun grew up in Colorado]

1. OMG seriously you want me to what?

2. Skis????

3. No, no I'll just cop a pose blend in look pretty.

4. I am so not gonna ski and ya can't make me!

ok enough silliness, and most likely funny only to me but hey, my blog my silliness

Shape- mine

Skin- Mynerva

Hair -Tatum by Fir.day

Nails/rings Mandala

Outfit - Fluffy by AMD

Boots -Pomski Boots by Kookie

Colors

2010-11-06T18:58:00.000-07:00

So I was reading something the other day and it made me think, I know ouch. Any way sometimes the lines of communication are lost... you cannot ask neither can they.. there is no going back to what once was sadly. Anyway this song is kinda how I see them at the moment.

Can you feel it crush you? Does it seem to bring the worst in you out?
There's no running away from these things that hold you down
Do they complicate you because they make you feel like this?
Of all the colors that you've shined this is surely not your best

But you should know these colors that you're shining are...

Surely not the best colors that you shine
Surely not the best colors that you shine

I know you feel alone, yeah, and no one else can figure you out
But don't you ever turn away from the ones that help you down?
Well they'd love to save you. Don't you know they love to see you smile?
But these colors that you've shined are surely not your style

Surely not the best colors that you shine
Surely not the best colors that you shine

I know you're feeling like you're lost
But you should know these colors that you're shinin are
I know you're feeling like you're lost,
You feel you've drifted way too far
Did you know these colors that you're shinin' are

Surely not the best colors that you shine
Surely not the best colors that you shine

Surely not the best..
(I know you're feeling like you're lost)
Colors that you shine..
(but you should know these colors that you're shining are)
Surely not the best..
(I know you're feeling like you're lost you feel you`ve drifted way too far)
Did you know these colors that you're shinin' are..

Dress-League

Boots League

Hair- Truth

Nothing to Say :P

2010-11-05T13:07:00.000-07:00

Shape-personal
Hair - Truth -Madaline, Raven
Skin- Mynerva,Pure Envy
Eyes-[kOwP] combo eyes
Necklace -.HOD. Fallen Necklace
Tattoo - TSS,Poison Tattoo
Dress - Sassy Kitty, Spiders Lover Dress
Stockings - *Sheer*
Shoes - Fume', High Keira
Gun - Cleric

Been Awhile

2010-11-01T21:19:00.000-07:00

So it's been awhile since i wrote anything down, I tell myself i am gonna then I don't but I am here today, decided i have something I need to get off my chest so to speak.
This may piss some people off though I know many who agree with what I am about to write about,any way here goes...

Married people and SL.... I have never understood nor will I understand... the mind set of some people that having a relationship in SL isn't cheating if you are married in rl. OK, some say rl and sl are separate... well they aren't, not really.. in some way things always cross and mingle.

A relationship in SL mimics a RL one on many levels... and if you are married... you may not be cheating physically but you are cheating emotionally.. at least in my book. I think back to when my husband was alive and I think were he in SL having a relationship with some chick I'd be hurt...and angry.. and I know were it reversed he would feel the same.

I put someone on a pedestal once long ago... they always said they would never have a sl relationship because it was cheating.. and I admired them so for that for having the balls to stick to it, and then one day they fell off that pedestal i had put them on.. was it fair of me to put them there? maybe not, but either way, something along the line changed.. we stopped talking they stopped asking ... I guess maybe you never recover when your hero falls.{ yes I know that sounds dramatic but I know of no other way to express how it feels}

So as much as I hate to say this because i know it will cause some bitching .. ok so the entire post will.. but my thoughts on married people having sl relationships are indeed solely mine and everyone is entitled to their opinion, my answer to it? To do what I call a Daisy and hit the uninstall button, go see if your marriage is worth saving, either it is or it isn't but you probably wont know if your sitting in sl playing "house" with someone else.

VIP

2010-08-13T21:13:00.000-07:00

Ok my friend gave me this link and I honestly think everyone should read it
http://lordgreggreg.wordpress.com/2010/08/14/emerald-reassessment/

Then and Now

2010-07-28T22:15:00.000-07:00

Ok so I was just kinda thinking snapped a pic... love this chair.. had it a long time. Below is a pose same chair a little over 2 years ago lol.
In case your wondering, Hair-Truth-Boho,Skin-Sawode-Lisa,tan Outfit Delirium-Mir'ari, shoes-N-Core.Nails-Mandala. The chair is from Melino Style

Ok so this was then...7-12-08 seems a life time ago and my how the avi has changed

My Blog

2010-07-24T15:00:00.000-07:00

Blogs are what? A place people can write what they feel like writing. It is a virtual diary of sorts. Do I vent a lot in mine? mhm I do.. why? better here than yelling at people. I am reminded of something someone once told me ages ago... doesn't matter how much good you do, no one will ever remember it, they will instead remember only the worst moments. This is partly true and partly not, I don't completely agree nor disagree, instead I see it as a situational thing.
People will always judge, they judge you by the clothes you wear, the people you know, the places you hang out what have you, can you change it? sure you could but if you spent all your time changing things so people thought better of you then really are you still you? I know people in SL that others think the worst of... but ya know what? some of them I actually know better and I find that they are indeed not the person people paint them to be, do they do things to encourage the judgements... yep they do, and yet I know who and what they are.... and I allow them more space or rope than I would others. And no lol I'm not talking about myself, I'm talking about those in my SL that I have had experiences with, the ones who....for example didn't tell me the whole truth then came back and admitted it... forgive? sure.. forget? not so much.. move forward? mhm we have....we all have our less than shining moments... some of us have more than others but then again if we were all perfect what fun would life or sl for that matter be?
Blogs.. you have the right to read or not read... don't like mine? don't read it... I have some i enjoy, others I just don't bother with. If I wanted a cookie cutter blog about fashion and what not then I guess I'd do that, actually I have done a bit of that. Point is it's a free Internet...virtual world, world what have you so read or don't doesn't much matter to me.

In the end

2010-07-24T13:43:00.000-07:00

In the end the comment makes ever so much more sense....the writer states what she "knows OF me" mhm so I am to assume then she knows what she had heard... the rumors the gossip, some true, most not, it's all good, what ever makes ya feel better about yourself. Personal attack? hardly...simply judgements passed by a person who doesn't bother to learn facts. Cant say I've never done it myself, I think we all have.

Comments

2010-07-24T07:22:00.001-07:00

Ever wonder why people post comments insulting you then do so with out leaving a name? lol yeah right move along.

Win some Lose Some

2010-07-23T07:06:00.000-07:00

I don't really know why I titled this post that , I guess it's just what popped in my head. Many things have occurred as of late that make me question why I even bother with SL. At the moment it isn't much fun, it's more of a headache really. People I thought of as friends, seem to have become distant. The usual BS happens, like a guy telling me my avi is "not bad" only to watch him hook up with a partnered chick, ok so hmm my avi would look better if I was partnered? wow shallow seriously.
Bridges have been burned, most beyond repair, and to be honest I'm not so sure I have it in me any more to even try.
Staff who are trying very hard to "take me down" as it were, but what they don't realize is that in trying to take me down, they are doing 2 things... 1, they are perpetuating drama, which is of course against our rules, but because it's been about me I haven't enacted the suspension rules, and 2, by doing what they are doing they are in fact destroying the club they profess to love so much.
What becomes apparent here is that I need to step back and live my RL, because in the end I simply refuse to play these games any more.

To Some of you

2010-07-20T12:50:00.000-07:00

I said it on air today and I'll say it there.. thank you to everyone that has
made SR a great place I appreciate you, but especially to those who refuse to play the "whisper" game, who do not come to play the drama game or the he said she said games, those that truely come because you enjoy the music and the people, 3> to you I admire those that rise above it all and simply enjoy.

On To The Next

2010-07-20T00:44:00.000-07:00

ok so i spoke of drama... and wow here we are supposedly all adult... mhm hey i made a mistake I admit it, but wow the childish games never stop....new "friends" icy lil circles... no hellos.. tippig all the staff but one.. really people grow up seriously get over it and move the hell on. If I carried grudges for all the shit people did to me in SL hell I'd never speak to anyone. To err is human.. to forgive? Divine. Next time your behaving like a spoiled 2 year old stop and recall that line, might help you see past your petty shit.

And The Amusement Never Ends

2010-07-20T00:42:00.000-07:00

Ah yes the wonderful fickle world of SL... one day they love you 2 days later they are partnered to... ohhh a club manager and professing their true love.. oh and wait it gets better dedicating the same tired ass song to them they did to you... I know right? -shakes head- will people never cease to amaze me.

And So It Goes

2010-07-17T23:11:00.000-07:00

So it's been a crappy week or so in my SL. Some of it self induced, some not.
Not in the mood to whine just to vent it and be done with it.
So first enter into my SL a guy mhm always a guy right? So guy #1 is all mysterious right.... new so you knew he was a alt, and something in my head said whoa you know this person, and it turned out I did....so I did a stupid thing i used an example to make a point and in doing so I said something i should not have said... mhm I was wrong and I know this, and it is a cross I will bear for the rest of my days. Any way... the guy when i found out who he was.. and the lies he told... i was angry oh yes I was pissed.....and I talked to someone.. well that someone told someone and mhm he got caught, guess maybe i spoiled some of his plans who knows... maybe he needed to get caught. So he sent a log to someone of the thing I had no business saying.. mhm couldn't have seen that one coming... how "brotherly" like of him to show that to the person... somehow I don't think he had them at heart but hey that's my thoughts on it. so I pay the price for that, and I admit I did wrong.
So on to guy #2 mhm I admit I jumped too fast I shared things with him that in retrospect I shouldn't have but this man was so freaking suspicious... always questioning who i was talking to and so on, so i would show him just to get past it. So now he too shared a log of the 1st incident.. wow just wow go figure. There have been threats... over voice, in I'm... and seriously all I want is for him to just go away and leave me alone. Can I not have a quiet SL with out liars and people intent on doing me harm? Seriously people I am human here, and attacking me is getting really really old... Go away just go live your SL leave me out of it. Trust me lesson learned here, I wont be telling anyone shit ever again. If that makes people think I'm even more of a snob well so be it. It is what it has to be I guess.

And So It Goes...

2010-07-10T17:36:00.000-07:00

So awhile back I decided i would start doing employees of the month, 3 to be exact, host dancer and dj..now... it's true I did not allow the managers to help, yes sometimes they gave me opinions but in the end I chose... why? because I did it not for a popularity contest... I did it as my way of trying to make everyone feel special.. apparently that was a bad thing to do. I didn't play favorites though I did start out giving the spots to the managers, why? cuz they work hard, harder than some realize. In time I would have covered everyone, I was working on it, and honestly the lindens i gave them each month, 500 each, not a huge amount but that was 1500L a month out of my pocket, not the clubs. So I guess it was a mistake, I guess people felt i was playing favorites, I'm going to guess those that bitched were those that hadn't been picked yet, and perhaps a ex manager or two who felt the need to vent. Any way thanks to those that complained and bitched I ended it, sadly I wont get to meet that goal of making everyone special, July will be the last month for the EOM's.

Drama Mama's

2010-07-09T14:51:00.000-07:00

So I get an I'm today.. telling me someone showed up at another club they were working at and yelled some nonsense in chat that I had been given a piece of a&& for my birthday yesterday. OK first I got angry especially in light of being told it was one of my SR staff, then at the fact that it hurt someone, not me, but someone else. Seriously people...1 these are pixels .. lol a piece of a**? wow someone neglected to tell me cuz i missed out. But more importantly those people that do crap like this.... need to remember one thing..... karma is a bitch, your messing with real people behind those monitors and I'm guessing were someone to do something similar to you, you'd cry to the heavens about the unfairness of it all. Seriously people are your own SL's and maybe RL's so boring and empty that you feel the need to attempt to cause trouble in other's?
I should probably be insulted that anyone thinks i have to have it given to me lol I should, but instead I find it amusing that someone felt the need to talk about me in another club... at least I'm a legend in some one's mind right? Any way that's my rant today lol keep rocking peeps and have a good one!

Too Fing funny

2010-07-06T16:24:00.000-07:00

ok so I have to add this

[16:20] Mirari Cheney: he got fired from that club.
[16:20] Mirari Cheney: because hes partnered to me
[16:20] Mirari Cheney: then
[16:20] Mirari Cheney: they add to their rules to cover their asses
[16:21] Jadyn Violet: what does the rule say? you cant be a DJ here if you are partnered to Mirari Cheney?
[16:21] Jadyn Violet: look how famous you are :)
[16:22] Mirari Cheney: shakes head
[16:22] Jadyn Violet: it's the mirari cheney clause LOLLL
[16:22] Mirari Cheney: lol can i blog that?
[16:22] Jadyn Violet: yes :)
[16:22] Jadyn Violet: course

Seriously People

2010-07-06T15:03:00.000-07:00

So today my partner.... gets fired from the club he dj'd at. a club he enjoyed djing at.... true I have only been there once and only because he asked me. Now... he was fired from there, why? well he was told point blank because he was partnered to me.... amazing seriously amazing.... like what do they think? I have some of their staff that works at my club and vice versa, I dont bad mouth them, I dont require my staff not work else where, I never had any issues with that club, I do now though. I guess i should start banning all their staff that hangs out at my club, I suppose I should begin to remove my staff that works at their club, but to be honest I cannot be arsed to act like them. Not hiring someone because they manage another club or own one is 1 thing discriminating because they are partnered to a club owner? seriously how small minded can you be? so it was done they say to "protect" them lol like um from what? do they honestly think i have nothing better to do than worry about them? Please people get over your selves, no club no club owner is so freaking special that they are better than or above anyone else. Wouldnt we all be better people if we all subscribed to the live and let live.
Their rules state you cannot be a partner in another club... ok so now I am the club? again bs absolute bs... he is not partnered to the damn club people he is involved with me, he takes no part in running SR, none..... nor will he, cuz I dont mix my business with my personal. Yeah Im done and Im over this just goes to show you can be nice you can mind your own but people gotta sprout bs and destroy because they are small minded.

Bragging Rights

2010-05-13T17:13:00.000-07:00

So I took the time to contact this person as one owner to another.... because I had questions about their set up and being as we were allowing a tribute band{ sorry something i find totally silly} into SR for the first time... you bet I had some concerns about stage size and what not... and what do I get but the owners assistant responding to me... hrm well had I wanted to speak to her I would have imd her or had my GM handle it but no I chose to try and speak to the owner... well needless to say I was a tad pissed off at his apparent better than thou attitude and said so...seriously, wouldn't most people be offended at being given the brush off? And what did I get in return? -chuckles- a note card full of condescending crap about his company and how he's so famous in rl and what hes done and blah blah blah apparently I'm guessing he thinks he is the only one with a music industry background.It's funny he accused me of being the very same thing as he was by not taking the time to reply, pot call the kettle black much? whats sadder yet is he seems to be so full of himself and all that he does that he wont even see that he in fact started the holier than though contest by not responding in the 1st place. I'm sure his assisstant is a very nice person however again she isn't who I spoke to, it's called common courtesy, he accused me of lacking it when he himself lacked it in abundance in the 1st place...all I did was return exactly what he dished out. It's all good.. some of us feel the need to brag about such shit, some don't, personally I appreciate those that don't cuz in truth... who you know and who you blow in rl don't mean shit to me. Been there, done it, read the book, skipped the movie, and definitely lived it. As usual will I tell you who in this post? nah I'm far far beyond that. Mute is a wonderful thing isn't it?

A song can say so much

2010-04-29T19:28:00.000-07:00

Candlebox - Far Behind

awesome older song, my current fav for many reasons, give it a listen if you havent

Nothing Much To Say

2010-04-02T01:29:00.000-07:00

Not much to say? Wow I know your thinking holy chit Mir saying nothing here? LOL yep i have no gripes no bitches nor any pics to show off at the moment... what I do have is a post from someone elses blog to link I was told to go look by another.. and honestly i was rather blown away when i read it.. why? well it was odd to read about a situation from someone elses perspective.. unbiased I believe... and well yah she said it all so well.

http://crimson-flow.blogspot.com/2010/03/118365.html

About those bots....

2010-02-09T05:32:00.000-08:00

I've been thinking a lot about them I don't know why most everyone knows my thoughts on them....if you have to use them to make your club look busier than it is and make yourself feel like you've "won" something then hey I guess... more power to ya. At least I know for a fact that SR has never used bots of any sort to achieve traffic. Though I do have to give a "hats off" to the use of in club bots.... wow getting sneaky aren't they? S'ok LL will find them out eventually, I only wish they'd make a fine or something for it. So recap here.. Bots= bad... bots= lying to yourself and your guests.. bots just suck indeed they do... though using them as models for clothing stores is actually a pretty darn awesome idea!

I felt it I really did

2009-12-23T02:15:00.000-08:00

I felt a rant coming on it was there... lol then i realized some people and their bs are just so not worth my time... so... that said
Merry Xmas and Happy Holidays to all of you!

Mir

2009-12-13T09:17:00.000-08:00

Thought For The Day

2009-12-11T05:30:00.000-08:00

Just a random thought......
Do people really think they are fooling others?

Touchy Subject

2009-12-05T13:10:00.000-08:00

This is a tough one to write about, people will read into it, some will think it's about them when it isn't, some who should wont lol and eh ya know life goes on and all that crap.

So how to begin this, I was profile pervin, lol nothing new there, saw a comment I'm pretty positive pertains to me, i found it amusing cuz it was pretty well off base. But then that's nothing new, as we know people see what they want to see to make themselves feel better .

So.. lets see.... a person has/had a friend, someone they enjoyed talking to ... hanging out with now and then.. then suddenly it stops... reasons? who knows really, i think the "friend" isn't telling the whole truth but again it's all always open to interpretation right? So then they suddenly have... I don't know what to call it... a bulldog? watch dog? personal body guard? who doesn't let anyone else close to them, cant hang out with them cuz the watch dog is always there, cant just have friend time again why? ,mhm the new watch dog is there [ and no I'm not calling the person a dog, its just the best description i can come up with] at this point I am amazed the person has any other friends, cuz no one can get close to them. It's amazing then cuz they say oh everyone thinks I'm f*cking the "watch dog" well hmm guess what when that watch dog has their head so far up your ass, i can see why people think it, seriously, I've questioned it myself and honestly i know better or think I do, who knows people can fool you, and amaze you they do every day.
So, because i make comments, which i know now have been passed on, mhm I'm not stupid people, I'm called jealous, well maybe a little but it's more like hurt I guess, it's called sharing? and some just don't do it well I guess.
In the end it's all good, I've learned who is truly a friend [then again we never really know do we?] and who isn't.
So I've a feeling this post may cause some fall out, in the words of someone I actually still think a lot of " it is what it is" after all this is my blog and I am entitled to say what ever i want right?
Now you can read this and think " oh man I know exactly who she is talking about...." or you can take it for what it is... venting or hell I don't know lol i guess you'll do what ever you need to do, I know I will.

2009-11-20T13:56:00.001-08:00

I rarely talk about these things... but I am a widow with a couple hellions still at home, imperfect though they are, spoiled, they don't listen but they are mine and I love them. Being a widow is an experience you cannot understand unless of course you've been there. Certain days bring about memories, painful and good, certain times of the year and so on, I am told it gets better with time, I'm hoping for that. Yesterday the twins turned 9.... and the memories flooded in, it was a stressful day, a lot of work trying to give them a party they would enjoy and remember. At the end of it all one did say it was the best party ever, so that was my thanks small but heartfelt and wonderful. I lost someone else yesterday, they cannot and will never understand, am I perfect? Oh gawd I wish I was, but that isn't in the cards, so i deal the best i can with what I have sometimes I do OK sometimes I don't. So many blessings I should just not think about the bad right? Doesn't work that way.
In a couple weeks my Dad's birthday will be here, I wont go into how old he would have been and many of you were with me at SR the day he died, virtually holding my hand and hugging me. Some days it's the best you can ask for.
Life goes on we all say and I guess that's what mine must do.
I close this to a quiet evening at home, the boys were invited to a basketball game , thus I have free time on my hands. Perhaps I'll spend it thinking on the good things and trying to get past the bad. :)

Amusing isn't it?

2009-10-15T01:50:00.000-07:00

I find it amusing to read profiles... and even more so when I come across something so blatantly full of shit i have to comment... so I'm reading and I see someone say.." there are 2 sides to every story.. get to know both" lol ok so hrm.. that person has run around my club crying on shoulders... in an attempt to gain friends and create the drama they so claim to dislike... I am amazed every day by this type of shit.. seriously I am.

Thoughts

2009-10-12T06:48:00.000-07:00

So.. someone told me long ago on SL... those who cry and rant and go on about Drama in their profiles.... are in actuality the ones who perpetuate it, seem to be smothered in it. And the longer I exist in this virtual world, the more i come to realize they were indeed correct.
Watch people sometime, read profiles... see if it doesn't ring true for you.

It's kinda like someone claiming they care, then finding out they were talking shit about ya behind your back all the while.......remember that old song... " they smile in your face, all the while they wanna take your place... backstabbers" mhm it is so true at times.

It's like an ultimate betrayal, least in my book to tell someone you care and -gasp- even love them then turn around and at the same time tell others crap about the person your claiming to care about.. wow just wow, I'm not sure even I could be that shitty.

So on to bigger and better things yes? Believe it or not, my sl doesn't revolve around running around trying to destroy people, or at the very least make them look bad. Most people make themselves look bad all on their own.

Party on Rockers...

reactions

2009-10-01T13:02:00.000-07:00

lol mhm i can tell who that comment came from... so I'm told my blog created drama... -chuckles- good excuse toots ain't holding water and here's why..... 1. no names mentioned...
and lol if someone got upset about something i wrote... then perhaps they need to step back and look at why... if it wasn't in some way true it wouldn't bother you, so if i write about oh lets say.... the vultures of sl... and you take offense then i'd say you are one in some way or at least behave in a similar fashion... cuz if you didn't... it wouldn't bother you.
Victims... mhm I'm seeing one ... man lets talk about trying to play innocent... lol yah right and I'm a saint.
i could have not published that comment about the tags but it's all good i am pretty sure i know who it came from lol and had she not been guilty she wouldn't have felt the need to defend herself and not leave a name.
What you people don't get is... mhm sometimes i do write about people around me... my opinions... this is a blog that's something blogs are about... opinions... but you wont see me use a name, you wont see me give hints cuz that's not how i roll.
Now... I am putting this little chapter behind me, some people, some things are so not worth the time to write about them or the situation. Any further drama coming from them will be handled differently.
have a great day!

I can see clearly now

2009-09-28T14:33:00.000-07:00

Funny how suddenly everything comes into focus isn't it? I got handed a pack of lies.... and now... lol mhm i know it, I see you for what you are. How the high and mighty fall.

Oh and one more thing

2009-09-21T14:45:00.001-07:00

lol I left an important gripe out... I am reminded today as one of the dj's gives special treatment to the person who does this very thing....,

People that wear their club tag... at other clubs... see i consider this a common courtesy thing, and I am not the only one... many do... especially owners, seriously people... would you like me to stand in your club wearing my "sanctuary Rock owner" tag, let along the plain SR tag? Oh but it gets better.... it really does.... not only does this particular club owner do this.... she had the nerve to im me one day asking about one of my djs because she wanted him to work at her club... wow just wow... social ignorance i guess.... troll for staff much? Seriously this maybe SL but some rules apply here just as RL least in my mind.... I guess some just don't much give a shit.

What , you might be asking yourself... did I say to said person... honestly for once i bit my tongue and said nothing.. I wanted to, but given her behavior thus far I'm guessing bitching her out would have gone right over her head.

Sad isn't it?

It's Been Awhile

2009-09-20T07:08:00.000-07:00

So it's been awhile.... yah i've been quiet.... I don't tend to run around bashing and shit as much as people think I do. So I have some things I've been mulling about lol oh yah look out here comes the rambling shit.

So lets see... 1st off the top of my head,

1. People who claim people copy thier look.... lolok 1st... this is SL everyone wears the same shit people.... good lord they see it on you in a club and they buy it, everyone shops in the same damn stores... and when you accuse someone of stealing your look lol check your bod 1st... plz...they have prolly been around longer you and aint stealing shit from you,and a lil hint... lol some of you I recall when you were noobs at SR and you didnt have " that look" you claim for yours, maybe YOU should get your own look!

2. Drama queens... yah we have a few about the club... mhm they think I dont notice or get told about them... running around crying to people about how mean I am and that I hate them wah wah wah... bishes plz... what you dont see is the people laughing at you because of your behavior.

3. Oh here's a good one... the chick... everyone knows at least 1 I'm sure.... she makes sure she weasles her way in and makes friends with all the guys... your guy your best friends guy .... mhm then trouble starts... always the same.. always happens.

4. ohhh the " People warned me about you!... Your friends my friends your Mom.... all warned me about you" lol um then why you talking to me? ok moving on.

5. The he said she said game.... boy meets girl... they get together.. then they break up... he bashes her to everyone.... mhm you heard me... funny thing... All I have to say is... nice guy just not the guy for me. nuff said on that.

6. The alt game.... gotta love when alts appear... 2 days old decked out in all the best sl has to offer... mhm you know the ones... so obvious they are alts.

So ok maybe thats enough if mirisms for today lol hpe yours is a great one!
<3

Things that make ya go hmm

2009-07-15T09:28:00.000-07:00

Walkin' down this rocky road

Wondering where my life is leadin

'Rollin' on, to the bitter end

Finding out along the way

What it takes to keep love living

You should know, how it feels my friend

Ooh, I want you to stay

Ooh, I want you today

I'm ready for love

Oh baby, I'm ready for love

Ready for love

Oh baby, I'm ready for loveYeah

Ohhh, for your love

Now I'm on my feet again

Better things are bound to happen

All my dues, surely must be paid

Many miles and many tears

Times were hard but now they're changing

You should know that I'm not afraid

Ooh, I want you to stay

Ooh, I want you today

I'm ready for love

Oh baby, I'm ready for love

Ready for love

Oh baby, I'm ready for lovemmmmm

Oh I'm ready for love

Ahh, hey ey ey Ready for your love

Ooh, I want you to stay

Ooh, I want you today

I'm ready for love

Oh baby I'm ready for love

Ready for love

Oh baby I'm ready for love

Ready for love

Oh baby I'm ready for love

Ready for love

Oh baby I'm ready for your love

Ahhh ha aahhh ahWooa Oh oh oh Woa

I'm ready for your love

Oh babymmmmm mmmm mmm

People Amaze Me

2009-07-13T08:09:00.000-07:00

It never ceases to amaze me... seriously.. that people have nothing better to do than talk about me.. what makes it even funnier is the half truths. It's cool though I am far from a victim, I am human, I have had my less than shining moments in SL, but I also know I'm not half the monster some would portray me to be. However in many ways their bashing and bad mouthing has done me a favor, it keeps many people away from me, thus saving me the time of deciding if they are indeed "real".
I am one person lol no one important, and yet the rumors abound, i am always amazed when i hear some of them. I am blessed with friends who know the truth, who don't bother to listen.
If these people who spread the crap knew me lol they would know i'll be the 1st to admit if it's true, half true or not.
I don't bother lying about shit in sl,or rl cuz it always comes back to kick ya in the ass.
I'm not even going to bother going into the latest ... just know I'm having a good laugh :P

Wow

2009-07-09T12:29:00.000-07:00

ok so i had met someone and we hung out a couple days, he was a nice guy I thought... i liked him, i will admit i suck at sl relationships, im hesitant, and what have you but ok so i then spent a day , i was busy rl and sl, [here's a clue people i am afk a lot because i have kids and a job, i deal with them even if my avi is logged in] so ok i have a quiet day didn't talk to anyone much other than answering ims, and suddenly i'm told i was in a bad mood blah blah.. then the attack continues on to the following,

[2009/07/09 12:02] name removed: Yanno what? Just forget it...Ban me from SR....I shoulda listened to my buddy when I told him you and I started hangin out recently...He said it was a loss cause and that your only here for people to drool over your pixels and you get angry when the attention of guys falls else where...Granted I don't listen to he said, she said stuff, but I guess I shoulda listened to this one...I found out it's a big talk in SR anyway

[2009/07/09 12:03] name removed.. puts you on the wonderful mute list of SL drama and whores.

[12:15] Mirari Cheney: wow i hope i am muted... I have one day im quiet you accuse me of being in a bad mood and then you throw shit at me that some chick said? lol wow you seriously are an asshole ... thanks for giving me the benefit of the doubt and ban you? pffft in your fucking dreams.

[12:18] name removed: You are muted but it comes to my email anyway..Why not ban me? your club is a piece of shit, I never go there and refuse to, and it has nothing to do with your ONE DAY OF QUIETNESS..it has to do with WHO YOU ARE and how YOU ACT..your a grumpy old fuck bag, who thinks she can get away with fuckin with peoples heads in SL...News flash..your a fuckin idiot and no one likes you..Go spend time with your KIDS EMAILING FOR THE GREATER GOOD Join me

ok so.... hmm he heard from a friend I get mad cuz guys don't pay attention to me? wow Theres a a new one on me, I usually keep to myself again i am usually afk like i said. So whats wrong with this picture? I spend a day not talking and hes claiming i get mad cuz i wasn't paid attention to? Sad thing is this person really was someone i thought could be a friend, and i guess his attack, shows me it was obviously a good thing to pull away for a day true colors came through.

We all have reps in SL.... your blind if you think you don't, do i think no body likes me? nah i don't believe that, do i agree some people don't? yep i do, it's just how it is, people don't take the time to get to know you before judgements are made, they decide based on rumors and other crap. To the person who told him that stuff about me... lol yah what ever buddy, you obviously don't know me.

As to SR being shit? well then you just said my entire staff and those that go to SR are shit, SR isn't me, ive said it before... SR is everyone that frequents it and everyone that works there, SR is all it's past owners and staff so um yeah you just insulted a hell of a lot of people. I am but one person there, I make sure the bills get paid, and dj occasionally, that's it, it takes more than me to run the place.

Anyway that's my rant today... am I a bitch? sure aren't we all sometimes? Do i need people to drool over my pixels? lol um nope, Mir as an avi is imperfect, i made her that way, I guess if i needed people to drool over her I'd be there every day with her naked attempting to be the spot light. In truth believe it or not i get uncomfortable when people pay too many compliments on my avi, I actually enjoy conversations instead of the usual " omg your avi is hot" hmm so are 2/3rds of the avis in sl, I don't own the market on it. I actually like "friends" who are not sometime friends, you know the type, they im you now and then when no one else is around to hang with them,or till the next big friend comes along, or when they are djing somewhere. Oh and the fucking with peoples minds.... wow that's a new one, not sure what field that came out of but here's another news flash, no one can fuck with anyone's mind unless they let them, I don't appreciate it done to me, thus I don't make a habit of doing it to others.

In the end I hope that verbal attack made the person doing it feel better, I hope who ever his buddy is who told him that crap feels better about himself too, I myself would rather not bash people, nor carry around anger and grudges, it's so pointless.

So in spite of the insults the attack... i hope he and his buddy have a great day and a happy SL, cuz I've vented, I'm done with it.

Moving on.........

A response

2009-06-20T04:55:00.000-07:00

I wasnt going to bother, but I'm so sick of a certain person always making sure to mention who created SR... and so i put a response in my pics, and the responses to my pic has been .. well it's been amazing. I will start with pasting here my pic rambling...

"Ya know... I do know who started Sanctuary Rock.. yep they keep managing to point it out in profiles and shit... but heres the thing, they sold it, not to me but to Daisy, hmmm SOLD it... yep I'd say that means it's done and it's over. Who cares when the day is done who started it or even who owns it currently...In the end it doesn't matter who's name is on a group as the founder..what matters is that SR is still here, and it took a lot of people past and present to get it here. so as long as it's a kick ass place to go, that to me is more important than anything else. I didnt create SR, nor do i make it great, my staff does,the people that come here do. So to those of you who feel the need to point out the past, geez get over it already."

I never had anything against those 1st people, nothing, dont know them only met one, and i had no issues with him until he attacked me. So, hmm who's really the bad guy here? Me? I dont think so I'm just trying to keep what was started alive so others can come and enjoy it. And to be really honest I pay the bills, the staff keeps it running, they keep the place kicking ass.

So really many people can claim to have "made SR" the people that visit it regularly, the DJs, the Hosts, the Dancers, because in my mind they did, everyone plays a part.

I'm going to end this with a comment from another friend, though im gonna leave his name off the comment, cuz.. well cuz i feel like it.

[16:23] A Friend: those that need to point out that someone else built it and they deserve all the credit are like armchair warriors and assholes....they all have an opinion they think is right. Rock On Sanctuary ...Party On Mirari!

What ever it takes

2009-06-07T11:10:00.000-07:00

It's amazing to me... that if you wish someone well... even if things maybe went badly wrong with them.. they assume you want them... that you want them back... what ever... I guess all I can say is what ever it takes to get you through the day... what ever makes you feel better... what ever you need to justify the end...I gave up trying to make my thoughts heard and understood... i gave up defending myself..seriously it comes to a point when you know your just talking to yourself. If hating me, if bashing me, if sharing logs, if all of that makes you feel better than please do so. However... I will always say hello i will always wish them well. Because no matter what anyone thinks... no matter the bs that gets spread...I do not regret having known you.

Musical Interlude

2009-06-06T19:26:00.000-07:00

Bury all your secrets in my skin
Come away with innocence
and leave me with my sins
The air around me still feels like a cage
And love is just a camouflage for what resembles rage again
So if you love me let me go
And run away before I know
My heart is just too dark to care
I can't destroy what isn't there
Deliver me into my fate
If I'm alone I cannot hate
I don't deserve to have you
Ooh, my smile was taken long ago
If I can change I hope I never know
I still press your letters to my lips
And cherish them in parts of me that savor every kiss
I couldn't face a life without your lights
But all of that was ripped apart when you refused to fight
So save your breath, I will not care
I think I made it very clear
You couldn't hate enough to love
Is that supposed to be enough?
I only wish you weren't my friend
Then I could hurt you in the end
I never claimed to be a saint
Ooh, my own was banished long ago
It took the death of hope to let you go
So break yourself against my stones
And spit your pity in my soul
You never needed any help
You sold me out to save yourself
And I won't listen to your shame
You ran away, you're all the same
Angels lie to keep control
Ooh, my love was punished long ago
If you still care don't ever let me know
If you still care don't ever let me know

Slipknot Snuff

Musings

2009-06-04T16:11:00.000-07:00

It's one of those days I guess oh what fun they are!

If I could turn back time... If I could find a way... I'd take back those things that hurt you, and you'd stay.

hmm old cheesy song by Cher... yup I admit it... it certainly is from a Cher song...

Turn back time... wonderful concept...sometimes we all wish we could i imagine... some things i wish i could do it... other times not.

Any way lol yah i know for some of you none of this makes sense ... but for me... it does and hey it's my blog right? lol

ok musing over

Thoughts For Today

2009-05-31T05:35:00.000-07:00

So..it's time, I need to just write about somethings that bother me on some level or another.
1. Blindness... I don't mean as in cant see... no I mean people who cannot see anything but themselves, and what they need, what they feel..mhm reminds me of the teenage anthem.."what about meeeee..what about my feelings". Seriously this type of person would decide this is about them even if it wasn't why? because EVERY thing is about them dammit and your attempt to hurt them.
2. Victims...again not true victims... but those that see the world as hurting them... everything and everyone hurts them, and they cry and whine to anyone that will listen about everyone that's ever hurt them...because they also usually fall into the 1st category. They also fall into the next one.
3. Drama Queens. Mhm you all know who and what they are... running around bad mouthing everyone, always complaining, their life real and second is always in turmoil, and it's always someone Else's fault. Oh wait isn't that a victim? lol I guess Victim really does = drama queen.

Am I perfect? lol not even close.. I'm stubborn...I have a hella temper...I also have moments of some of the afore mentioned traits... I think everyone does...though usually they move on and deal with what ever is bothering them.

Ok I guess that's about all i have to say on it...I'd mention that these are just thoughts and not related to anyone but eh at least 10 people will say omg Mir's bad mouthing me!

I think I am in Love....

2009-05-11T06:46:00.000-07:00

with a jean outfit..... muah ha ha ha you thought I was gonna say myself! admit it! No I found this store not too long ago.. Little Britain.. and wow ... just wow..awesome clothes and boots! omg boots! So I think i bought about a third of the outfits in the store...[that's a low estimate lol ]
The Boots ... I'm collecting them! Ok so they have lucky chairs a free outfit every week... camping chairs.... so over all it's a fun place to hang out... next to mine that is. So the owners/creators Ivica and Drummer... really nice people by the way... I contacted Ivica about making a outfit for Sanctuary Rock... cuz i love love love their outfits... ACDC, Metalica, ad so on.. and with the help of Joppem Tulip who made the new club logo... [which kicks ass I must say]

So Ivica and Drummer made this denim outfit for me.... at this point my managers and 4 other people have them... thats it... I'll be giving them away now and then as special prizes...so Thank yous are in order here... to Joppem for making the logo and remaking the logo [yah I'm a pain in the ass] and to Little Britian [Ivica and Drummer] for pulling it all together and making the outfit! Wanna check the store out? Search Little Britian or im me in world I will gladly give you the LM!

Who Ya Gonna Call?! Bot Hunters!

2009-05-07T19:20:00.001-07:00

ok so.... lol I have become a bot hunter of sorts oh yes it's actually quite fun... so there is this club that has suddenly appeared out of nowhere.. in search right on my ass... so I'm looking at their.. map and hmm its odd looking so investigating we went...odd place that is... you stand there.. and these dots look like they are below you about 10m.. and yet they are not there... hmmmm eventually after much searching my partner went up and wow there they were on top of this mega prim box that surrounds the sim... somehow making them look as if they are at almost ground level not up so high.... now for the gritty part... the bots... lol most were naked... xcite parts on.. a tent with a 4some bed was there too... even a tiger... bestiality anyone? so any way at least I know they didn't show up for real traffic.. oh now... they are runny bot porn? omg the latest in SL perversions? Bot porn hmmmm something to think about. Wanna know which club? IM me in world I'll tell ya -grinz-

Rude Stuff

2009-05-06T18:35:00.000-07:00

ok so in all of my almost 3 years in SL I had never gone and camped... nope not once.... I know hard to believe... so today I did... and I actually survived it...-chuckles- yus indeed I did... so I like a fool decide ok that wasn't so bad I'll go back and attempt to earn the other item i wanted... right so this ass decides to slide his rather rude self into the chair... now... I wouldn't have cared except I had waited a hour....mind you I know others wait longer but I am not in the habit of doing the whole chair thing let alone wait... so I im the guy and I say this..
[2009/05/06 14:48] Mirari Cheney: ass
[2009/05/06 14:49] Rivier Oconnell: fuck you loser
[2009/05/06 14:49] Rivier Oconnell: ill report ya
[2009/05/06 14:49] Rivier Oconnell: for being a baddd sport
[2009/05/06 14:49] Rivier Oconnell: just FYI lucky and camping chairs are games[2009/05/06 14:49] Mirari Cheney: waited for an hour
[2009/05/06 14:49] Mirari Cheney: did you?
[2009/05/06 14:49] Mirari Cheney: jerk

oh wasn't he mature and pleasant? I mean wow lol did he feel just a lil like the piece of crap he is? I mean honestly his reaction was a tad overkill. So yah I sent the log to one of the estate managers... told her to ban me if need be... I guess I'll not be doing camping again not with pukes like that guy around... sadly people like him.. probably don't spend a linden in the stores they haunt.

Quick Hide The Bots

2009-04-27T09:57:00.000-07:00

So if you follow LL blogs you have seen that they are going to begin policing the use of bots to increase traffic...well I'm all for that... but I have to wonder how they plan to do it....one club I tp'd to today... had 6 people that could not be accounted for... another... wow like 20 people all clustered up in the air... they sure as hell were not in the club -chuckles- hell the owner dances with a bot... it's amazing to me that you want traffic so badly that you would lie to get it.... so .. that makes you the best at what?... hmmm cant be music... no one there listening.. mall? nah its empty too.... so that makes you best at lying i guess. I know I have blogged about this many times... but it never ceases to amuse me...seriously like people cant see when they tp in that hmm the other 28 people the map showed aren't in the club? It's like saying eh lets use bots people are too stupid to notice there are only maybe 4 people in the club all are staff.. wow so wheres the party then? oh up in that box where the bots are huh? And Vendors.... wow they are paying for traffic that really doesnt exist and paying high prices too! I guess I just don't get it.

Yah I know Mz Bitchalot is on a roll

2009-04-22T13:50:00.000-07:00

so...back when Daisy still owned SR and continuing on now... event sponsorships were and are usually reserved for our vendors... I mean honestly, they pay rent... they help keep SR alive,so why wouldn't we mention them 1st? I mean really think about it, so we have always operated on the general rule that if it's a vendor who isn't in our mall, then they have to offer something we don't already have, and I have always felt that to be fair. People just don't get that I guess, and want to piss and moan and say shit .. well here's my take on it 1. If I don't know you 2. If you don't rent from me 3. If you don't provide something different. then hrm.... sorry I'm just not interested. Ok so maybe that makes me a bitch to some, but again I look out for my vendors. SR Mall has been redone and is currently full, SR has pure traffic... meaning no bots no campers... no malls close by on a different parcel that makes the mall look like your kicking ass... our numbers are what is... actual counts and I'm proud of that... my staff kicks ass daily .. with out them it would just be the rock. So renting at SR... means all those people will see your items... they may go shop at your main store... but your creations do get viewed!

Rant #2

tags... it always amazes me when people come in with staff tags from other clubs.. I mean honestly.. I personally find that rude... I mean I take mine off if I happen to visit another club, if nothing else i wear no tag... I try very hard to show some respect. To be honest when i see this happening, at SR, or other clubs I have to wonder if people aren't there creating trouble... trying to gather up business what have you. With out that tag you'd probably escape notice anyway lol but yah it's just plain old rude.

And now for the downside of vendors

2009-04-09T05:58:00.000-07:00

Yah know someone talked me into buying this DJ board once.. and I did so reluctantly... 1. it isn't very user friendly.... and now i find the creator isn't very user helpful.... you pull up his profile and find a bunch of crap about going to manuals finding a help phrase and then maybe then he might help you.. lol well I'm sorry i don't have time for that crap and I certainly don't have time for vendors who then insult me.... so yah board is going down from SR... I'll find something better... and would i suggest you buy this mans crap? nope not by a long shot... unless of course you want to be called unintelligent by someone who makes themselves completely inaccessible, because they seem to feel they are better than everyone else. Would i reccomend a SHX board? Um NO guess not.

DV8 Spells..... Yummeh!

2009-04-08T17:55:00.000-07:00

ok I had been there before .. indeed i had.. bought a couple things... but last night oi lol I went to get something neon for the 10pm event.. and wound up spending.. well a lot let's just say. I joked with one of the owners Dysturbed Syn, what a nice man ... and I got to meet his Partner Vasha... truly a nice lady as well... I mean wow they just rock. They gave me certificates to give away at my event... truly their kindness was unexpected and impressive! So yah peeps... run don't walk to the store... lots of kick ass stuffs there... latex in yummy colors... hair... even a neko tail and ears...I myself got to the riot vendor this morning and snagged a pack of their newest latex outfit for 40L woot cant beat a deal like that and we all got to rub up on the vendor and each other! What are you waiting for? gooooooo shop!

Grid Wide Hunts

2009-04-05T21:39:00.000-07:00

Ok .. hunts they are all the rage I guess you could say... and they can be fun... you meet new people see some new shops....but..and don't get me wrong this has nothing to do with the awesome vendors who donate their items cuz they seriously rock!.but... those groups attached to the hunt itself I'm telling you.... i joined one for the bunny hop..indeed i did , and for the most part... people were helpful, but on the flip side people were also rude....and i watched as time after time people belittled others... made them feel stupid for asking. People that joined 2 days prior and TYPED ALL IN CAPS because they are too ignorant to realize that denotes yelling have the nerve to smart off and treat people like shit... yah it happens and it's really sad. Guess that tells me not to join the damn groups right? right! As to the hunts eh I'll still end up doing them though honestly i don't need the stuff I mean come on lol my inventory is already at 63k and that's after deleting a ton of things. And they always end up costing me cuz i find things to buy, i may not always buy at the moment I'm there, often i go back later but still it's a sale right? So that brings me to one more gripe...and trust me people whom i consider awesome and friends do this... but um... why make the things so damn hard to find? I mean honestly... you agreed to give something away, then you hide it so it cant be found....wow ok so if it takes me 2 hours to find something then I'm probably not gonna come back to your store to shop.. why? well if you make it that hard to find something free why the heck should i come freely give you my lindens? I mean one hunt i never even went on because i couldn't find the 1st item, and that's pretty damn sad, oh and wait.. it gets better... so you decide too many people are finding it too easily so you move it and put up a "cheater's" sign ok so.. that means because people used... omg that group! they are cheaters? wow.. ok i think thats pretty shitty myself. And nope I'm not tooting horns here but when staff at SR wears something people see it...and remember SR is pure traffic.. no bots no campers so traffic of 40k is really 40k not 30k plus campers and bots, best free honest advertising a shop can get. OK lol I'm done bitching for today.. just a warning about those groups and their "helpers" remember people ... we were all new at something once... lets hope someone was kind to you when you were.

Vampart strikes again!

2009-03-31T15:23:00.000-07:00

It's called Twilight and it's scrumptious...... and of course I had to keep on the Unicorn goodies from Catnip actually looks pretty darn good with it!

Woot.... go see Vampart.... there is a shop at SR!

Nightshade Designs

2009-03-26T15:50:00.000-07:00

mmm one of my fav fav stores for Classy... Gothic.. styled clothing..and shoes! the dress here is called Sade.... its very detailed....and the pant set is called Blood Elegance... Boots Black Widow. If you haven't been there I suggest you visit soon! Nightshade Designs.

Rant time

2009-03-26T14:40:00.001-07:00

ok so... lol I promise... shopping next time! This time i have the urge to write about other things. So... a person decides they want to work at SR they seem nice and all that. Admit they are an alt... so on and so forth...so that in itself is nothing right? Ok but when your suddenly on this alt more than your main.... snooping around asking questions about all the regulars.... and suddenly buddying up to people i hang with.. hmm I have to wonder what drama that person is cooking up... I am hearing they are asking lots of questions .. things they shouldnt be. So why is this person doing this? I dunno.. they are partnered on their main... I can only guess A. he either doesnt know she needs to ho around on an alt... or B things are not so peachy there. That aside I have to think this person is up to no good.. I wonder if they think Im stupid and or blind and wont see whats going on. I am reminded of my rules now... the rules for drama prevention

1. I dun mess around with my staff.
2. I dun mess around with regulars at the club.
3. If someone has messed around/been involved with a staff member.. I dun touch them.

They work for me.

A Day At Sn@tch

2009-03-24T19:36:00.000-07:00

ok so don't get me wrong... I absolutely love Sn@tch..some of the most awesome clothes in sl....though one day I was IM'd by a co-worker.... about something quite interesting going on so I took the limo ride into the store.. and low and behold there were asses every where... ya know the j-lo ghetto booties which hey... different strokes for different folks right? [lol maybe if i didn't have one in RL I'd have one in SL but thats besides the point!] Any way what ensued was .. well a trip down memory lane for me.... ladies exchanging insults.... and I am not poking fun at them by any means.... it was actually quite interesting! So at the risk of a lot of bitching lol ima post what I have from the shop.. cuz oh yeah these chicks were the shit!

[21:25] Persephone Bolissima: Naomi, you find anything you like... i cant really tell how good stuff is here, because these two ugly bitches keep standing next to us, thinking we will make them look pretty

[21:25] Naomi Dubrovna laughs "yeah they are bringing the store down with their looks"

[21:26] Persephone Bolissima: and probly has a soar throat

[21:26] Shelianna Whiteberry: back to my regual skin

[21:27] Delicious Dollinger: You use your tongue prettier than a $20 whore.

[21:27] Delicious Dollinger: O that you know all to well

[21:27] Delicious Dollinger giggles

[21:27] Delicious Dollinger: and you work where?

[21:27] Shelianna Whiteberry: those bitches cant shitn

[21:27] Delicious Dollinger: for who?

[21:27] Persephone Bolissima: yeah, because surprisingly there are a lot of girls who look like they just got pimped off on a street corner, with hair that looks as if its been pulled a bit too much walking around

[21:28] Shelianna Whiteberry: no she didnt

[21:28] Naomi Dubrovna: yeah well i dont know about the other one look what she wearing obviously the cash doesnt come easy for her

[21:28] Shelianna Whiteberry: you two look like nasty siinks hoes

[21:28] Delicious Dollinger: You know what

[21:28] Persephone Bolissima: yeah so, i guess desperate times coem from desperate measures[21:28] Delicious Dollinger: Hold on

[21:28] Persephone Bolissima: especially when you cant even afford a bottle of decent shampoo[21:29] Shelianna Whiteberry: bitch plz

[21:29] Persephone Bolissima: or a comb for that matter

[21:29] Naomi Dubrovna: hmmm I dont know would you like the M for the freebie store? Oh wait you probably have all of those

[21:29] Persephone Bolissima: yeah dont bother

[21:29] Naomi Dubrovna: *LM

[21:29] Persephone Bolissima: we dont have enough freebie store lms

[21:29] Persephone Bolissima: to statisfy them, they probly got the whole sl grid's worth[21:29] Naomi Dubrovna laughs

[21:29] Shelianna Whiteberry: TAKE UR DOCKS OUT UR MOUITHS

[21:30] Delicious Dollinger: NO! hun don't get upset with them they don't know any better[21:30] Delicious Dollinger: you can see that in there looks

[21:30] Persephone Bolissima: yeah, we dont know any better cause you cant get any better... you can see that in our looks

[21:31] Persephone Bolissima: but as for you two

[21:31] Persephone Bolissima: much to learn

[21:31] Delicious Dollinger: Ummmmmmm O....K

[21:31] Shelianna Whiteberry: they guys

[21:31] Persephone Bolissima: first of all.... a street corner isnt the best job to make money, so i've heard... and obviously i've seen from you two

[21:31] Delicious Dollinger: You ok now

[21:31] Delicious Dollinger: huh?

[21:31] Shelianna Whiteberry: im cool now

[21:31] Delicious Dollinger: did I offend you hun?